:.. ~-+ 坚强就是在绝望中寻找希望+-~ ..:o(∩_∩)o

2011-10-16T17:28:00.003+08:00

wow.. time surely flies! my last blog post was on April (o.O)! I bet no one comes to this page anymore & i guess "thats the point".. hahah probably feel much better to vent out here :3

How have i been? -bored- i guess is the word... bored wif sch, work n my social life or rather i dun even haf one hahah~ *im an idiot n rather stay tat way*

=sometimes i wonder wat's the point of me doing that?= its envy rite? i dun get myself anymore either.. its so weird

+people who uses strong word can hurt some1 without even knowing it & i felt like an idiot seriously....+

Sad, bored and hate my life at the moment... *hoping to complete my uni smoothly so that my parents can stop annoying mi..., i seriously had no idea what i want to do in life... HR? i duno abt it im nt really the kind of outgoing/ leadership person..

FK MY LIFE seriously im getting more & more pissed off with myself for not knwing what i want and what i do....

-cant believe i stop trying n im lonely & yet i dun want to make an effort to go out to meet pple to do things...-

*juz wanted some1 to entertain mi 24hrs... regardless of who D: juz some1 who will talk craps wif mi n keep mi entertained =is it so hard?=

LIFE sux.. & i will stop envying

2011-04-20T02:09:00.002+08:00

19th April 2011

Went to a fortune teller or smthing at Bukit Timah wif alan...some of the things that the person said i believe are quite accurate :X

1. Bad temper
2. Make friends by see-ing my xin qing
3. Im a very straight forward person.. (v. true, i dislike pple talking to me gg ard the bush =.=")
4. LOLx she told me sometimes dun b so straight forward... hold back & do some charity o.O"
5. She said i ought to have been in luv ard 18-19... but i told her dun haf, den she mentioned the person muz haf hide it & didnt say o.O" (HU LAI DE??? lolx) anyway doesnt matter le..
5. I have all the elements... gold fire water land... so kk & my gui ren is those *rats* & *horses*..
6. Some bad things which im nt gg to share :X
7. Mentioned abt me gotta go out more often...
8. Said that i dun haf friends free to accompany me out (true... most of them are soOOo busy.. its been long since i ever met them :'( )
9. Gd career between 25-35, & haf to b in biz line & overseas o.O"
10. She mentioned abt making braces.. cos the teeth is also related somehw wif wealth -___-?
11. She gaf me 4 numbers for lottery to try my luk... my mom went & bought today the numbers... if the numbers really come out... i shall shout out in fb & really listen to her advice ba =X

tat's all the crazy things i did today...

im missing band so much omg.... :( i wish i could go back in time wif a time machine & go via band one more time

2011-04-07T03:25:00.001+08:00

April 2011
Out for supper @ holland V.. on the way back home, was talking wif alan & he described me as someone mysterious as he had no clue as to what im thinking..& he tinks im aint gd at expressing myself [:( sighs... ] im knw he's trying to help me.. but i seriously dunno ...-__-"

Random thoughts...
保持距离有错吗。。？
因为一直以来都是这样的啊。。
已渐渐的习惯拿一些事情做借口。。去拒绝。。
或许还在不知情下伤害了他人的感情。。
但，这就是我啊。。（- o -）?
这也算是不知道如何表达吗？
可是这是我唯一懂得的方法。。

并不喜欢那安静的时刻。。总觉得十分的陌生。。
当没话题说时，会不知如何是好。。
会不知道要如何表达，而只能静静的在旁听着。。
时间久了，就好像变得透明人。。
勉强说话，但还是不自在。。
一场尴尬的场面。。而心里不禁会想为何在这。。
如果你不在不是更好吗？

安全地带。。我还做不到，无法走出去。。

2011-03-28T15:37:00.005+08:00

龚芝怡的《明知道我爱你》歌词

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
放弃你忘记你只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
但为何到如今我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

明知道我爱你假装不在意
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道真的没关系

Sometimes, it makes me wonder if the right one is out there..
how come there's no pounding of the heart...
no missing of a certain person..
despite all that, still feels the envy and uncertainty towards all of it..
afraid to make the move/response when the time actually comes..

*woodblock* pls buck up & make urself a less boring person :(

still learning /trying to get along wif pple..
will try 2 stop telling myself tat its awkward &-'no topics' to talk.. (even if its the truth :( ..)
guess its the result of being numb wif the pple passing by my life for such a short time...
despite tat i shall 4ever treasure the short memories.. regardless if its sad or happy memories..
it shall always be kept in this blog / diary..

2011-03-28T14:59:00.003+08:00

Rawrs been quite some time since i last blogged.. okie *time to continue writing my boring diary*

Recalls of events~
13 march 2011.. Universal Studios trip wif Yee sihui, David, John, Kiat~
Meet up wif david on train at JE stop... even *booked* a seat wif my bag =.=" super embarrassing.. but ps cos i was late bo bian!

then meetup wif John, Kiat yee at Seah Inn foodcourt.. *smacks* john..ty for bullying mi so much -its payback *muaahaa

Then we went on to USS to get the tixs~ 1st stop was Shrek in 3d, we were all amazed wif the water sprayed at us each time donkey sneezed o.O", the spider part was the most shocking one *almost all of us were shocked by that* Lolx..

When we came out, it was raining quite badly.. hence we went over to some Donkey live show (singing) place to take shelter from the rain... pics taken!

every1 looks so stiff hahaa..
From Left to right: Me, Sihui, David, John, Kiat

Haha.. during the donkey show, Kiat kena chosen to vow for some stupid shrek practices lol..*SUAY!* :p

Next few stops (summarized): Jurassic park adventure! (WARNING) pple better buy poncho nxt time if u pple goes to this place!... the idiot 5pple of us didnt buy & end up *WET* Okie lah, the gals were only 50% wet from bottom down... the guys more suay (Head to toe all wet) despite them kept looking at the direction where the "boat" was heading.. they werent able to avoid the final deadly blow when the gate opened! *lol.. my friend said cos they were the heaviest tats y the boat swayed that way.. HAHA anyway Ty bcos the guys got wet instead of us.. & somemore they were wearing SHOES wif socks tat day... nice soaking for the feet for the entire day :D

Mummy ride... waited outside for them, as i heard it was a roller coaster ride; they went out shortly then john & david LIED to me saying the ride was like something for kids.. nt scary =.=" in the end i went on & i felt like scolding john when the ride starts... damned him! the ride was rather fast wif twists & turns !!!!@#$%^&*&^%$#$% after the ride.. smack the heck out of that idiotic johnathan! Damned him! RAWRS...

we had lunch wif hotdogs.. then went on some others shows/ attractions ard the place... before we went for the deadly roller coaster; i waited for them while they tried on the blue & red roller coaster.. X__X in the end i oso kena dragged to play zzZzz (!___!)" the blue roller coaster is the most scarly one felt like 360degree & screamed like siao... the red colored is only fast..but more standard track =.=" tried only once each ride ! no more roller coaster rides in USS for the rest of my entire LIFE *Rawrs!*

27th March 2011..
Dex bthday party, went wif BoonGuan, Sihui, Tommy to popeyes at Changi Airport.. okie declared the food is so-so only not v. fantastic.. i bought a slice of cake from icing room for dex but sihui forgotten about the lighter.. so boonguan went & bought 1 lighter specially.. =.=" in the end actually Tommy had one zzZzz LoLs.. present for zy ! smoker haha.. bg dun wan gif XD

then we went to a place & started playing monopoly deal card game =.=" i guess mi & boon guan was the ultimate loser didnt even win 1 round & i hate it when they flash the "its my birthday card" cos i dun haf $$ & had to pawn my property & often left wif nthing on the floor =.="! (but on the whole it was a fun game) ^^ managed to catch the last train back home ysterday !

Countdown.. 1more mth to my exams :( sighs the whole cohort tio scolding from ER lecturer also

WAKE UP CALL ting.. stop dreaming !___!

2010-11-01T01:03:00.003+08:00

Super summary of what happens recently!~

Phew!~ i made it in time for my application & payment for my course.. (im gonna b sOOooOoo *Dead if i missed it again ~__~"

then went Chinatown & paid deposit $500 for the 8 days korean + jeju trip in dec!~ ^^ & even went to bought *snow shoes~ o_O" so anticipating dec rite nw LoLx

Halloween was well celebrated in Universal Studios!~ (free tixs from company..) =.=" i guess i'll admit that im kind of timid, i was screaming & grasping another person's hand all the way throughout the journey.. *Oops sry ><

*darn that person holding the saw & the one holding the shovel... they purposely kept following us & kept scaring me =.=" & there was this haunted house... it was so funny cos i SCREAMED my way through the entire way & didnt even see what was @ the left / right side of my path... =.=" people were jumping out & scaring us.. zzzZz im so nt gg in there 2nd time..~_~

*luckily i still had my voice @ the end of the journey...

okie~ someone posted a video of the halloween that i went...so enjoy... (the PERSON that i hated the most is on 4.33 & 5.23 =.=" the saw~

*sighs... i seriously nid to get some things out of my head, & put an end to it =(

2010-10-03T17:14:00.002+08:00

01st Oct 2010~
~ felt sad cos once again i lost the chance given to me & it really bothers me whether did i really put in the effort to grabbing onto the chance..~ [upsets]

what's the path ahead of me exactly? i really cant see anything & felt like i aint doing anything to make myself move forward & have been staying at the same exact same spot since graduation

People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges...& i believe i does that

02nd Oct 2010~
went back sch for alumni practice.. np looks so different with new things added & with the new student clubs area~ ^^ was quite happy to see one of the choice piece was "Coasta De sol" that initially JYSB wanted to play for concert =)... the band showcase is "hard" to me bah~ but possible wif sufficient practice? [nw juz wondering if i shd join them for concert hmmm...most prob?]

2010-09-28T22:34:00.008+08:00

Taiwan Festive in Spore~

Super long queue, some of the foods are quite nice!~

25th Sept 2010
Shopping trip to Novena (United Square) as recommended by Andy on all the korean stuffs~
*On the whole, we didnt go home empty handed but with lots of "Korean foods" :p
Novena, innovative store ->

*Did online e-application for my uni~ =all that's left is the mailing of hard copies out=

27th Sept - 28th Sept 2010
Attended EPE Core & Payroll course by Creative as sponsored by company~
The pace of the course was super slow to me i guess, even had few attempts of falling asleep throughout the whole course~ but my result for the quiz after the end of the course wasnt tat bad 13/16 =) [yay, we'll be getting our certificates posted to the company ^^]

was watching a random show on PPS juz now & felt that this show was super meaningful even though im not a christian & i dun really know if i believe in god or anything but den...it teaches me that one ought to be "Strong & have faith"~

Title of the show: "Letters to God"

= things that have been once forsaken... are given a choice once again=

Recommends "韩版恶作剧之吻~”
(im only watched till @ ep3~ =.=) *the flasher episode is super hilarious lor..

2010-09-10T20:28:00.008+08:00

01st Sept 2010
Happy 21st Birthday to myself ^^~ though it was spent in the office.. was super happy to meetup after work wif beloved colleagues @ Fish & Co.. surprise presents from the Uncles (Uncle CJ & Uncle Loo) =p they got me a pretty star like necklace for $209 lolx, Uncle loo even gaf me the invoice to keep so that next time i can pawn it for cash he said..haa~ :p

04th Sept 2010 - 06 Sept 2010
Batam Post Bthday Celebration Trip wif my family & sis's family~ Took Ferry wif BatamFast.. our Ferry name was "Ocean Rider" zzZz though it was said to be BatamFast.. the ferry ride was SUPER slow instead; fell asleep unknowingly on the ride cos it was 1hr+ ride.. thankfully it was air-conditioned some more =p

Ferry arriving @ Waterfront Centre~ & Our ride to Hotel - Holiday Inn!~ even did a body scrub spa @ the hotel :) (aww too lazy to summarize let some of the pics do the talking =p)

(Batam's version of KFC -___-" first time eating KFC with RICE.. overall abit weird weird)
my nephew!~ adorable but den... perhaps im nt that gd ard wif kids :p

07th Sept 2010
*sighs company hired a new staff to be "so called" take over some of my workload..since im working as both a HR admin & payroll personnel.. okie, the new colleague is called Kristy, sadly she's a PRCs/China.. she doesn't have sing-pass which most of the things that i do required one -____-" so? result = everything still have to be done by me.. then Cl****** yet still want me to hold on to the training that im still doing? what's the point of engaging the colleague if she cant help me out? felt like they are really indifferent to how TIRED im.. doing so many things; *feel really sick & tired recently* o_O"

I kept telling myself that working there = a battle place & a good learning ground.. & i ought not to be persistent about the fact that im getting such little $$ despite the mountain of workload im being thrown.. sighs, nevermind i'll see what hw long i could endure before leaving there~

-haircut tomorrow!~-

2010-08-31T00:04:00.003+08:00

30th Aug 2010
El**** MIA today for work in the morning again, cant get via her HP~ it was only until late afternoon that Cl****** called me, ng & christine to office & announce that El**** have tendered her resignation letter & her last day will be 09th Sept~

Cl****** mentioned that in the meanwhile El**** will teach me how to do payroll... (i was like *okie, cool~ i've only less than 2 weeks to learn which others may took mths / yrs?* tat's jux too awesome rite? somemore there's aint any1 covering my duties while i learn... =just what are they expecting of me? -TURN ME INTO A SUPERWOMAN within these few days ar=

this is really "SUPER ridiculous"! somemore Cl****** havent even talked to me about the terms/conditions of going over to do payroll.. wat's my salary, job duties & everything & just expect to DUMP all the rubbish onto me first ar -___-"~ im not a RUBBISH collector kk? !@#$%^&^%$#@!@#$%

Den Cl***** can still say he cant find an admin assistant to replace all my workload yet.. (i was thinking like.. ya, if you could find someone wif a SUPER TINY advertisement done ->run on text ad style wif like about 3 lines & online website ad st701.. i would really 佩服你!) den he started talking that if he cant find a suitable candidate he might go for PRC (S-pass holders);

[xt thoughts deep inside : oh, tat's nice *if the PRC is unable to speak/communicate English with clients/ do his/her work that require English right, i believe it'll be a total waste of time..] & time is CLEARLY NOT ON OUR SIDE.. he knew it yet... ~

*sighs* tis yr bthday i guess i gotta haf to spend it in the office followed wif a dinner wif colleagues.. [i really doubt i have the time to stop my work & haf a day off to myself to celebrate my 21st.. tat's so sad rite?]

im still glad that im gg to Bintan wif my family & sis's family (4th - 6th Sept) as celebration of my bthday as well as my mom whose bthday is oso in sept~

2010-08-13T03:08:00.003+08:00

10th Aug 2010
*sighs* knew it tat when Joe resigned.. i would be targeted to go over to payroll ("(x.x)

no remuneration talked @ all yet.. i wanted to learn new things but it will be too much if they take advantage of tat rite? *ng asked me to request at least +$500 in my salary lolx.. if i could really get that sum den my part time studies fees is NO PROBLEM le~ =p

o told my parents tat i'll be taking part time studies in sim while working.. (yes, i knw its tiring hence NO MORE NET SURFING once sch starts = STUDY STUDY STUDY) hmm, i was thinking abt taking the uol course.. but which exact course i have yet decided..

13th Aug 2010
nth been talked & nth's been done..~ cant be bothered either -__-"

14th Aug 2010
went suntec for the mini travel fair by some companies.. tinking of gg taiwan~

im super tired.. shall summarize my future boring days too..

2010-08-07T16:13:00.011+08:00

03rd Aug 2010
Company gathering aka Joe's farewell.. (had Sakura buffet & k box session)!

~All de gals/Babes in the office~

5th Aug 2010
*eek* Cl****** talked to me about considering part time studies & taking over/transfer to what Joe's been doing (payroll) o_o" *ng & christ*** was super spot on, i was their "target" after Joe went back to her country.. -sighs- seriously when Cl****** says things like the company could consider scholarship sponsor all those, i seriously doubt it.. (confirm dunno bond for how long =.=)

though it's a good opportunity to learn new things but then.. the uncertainties are still there..? [*sighs* given the weekend to think it through..]

i SERIOUSLY hate making DECISION i guess.. esp those that i might regret in the future! =if only Paul the octopus could give me *spot on* advices on my future.. lol just kidding!

*bored & lazy lately!~ oh ya, thought of this christian name: Rayna (sounds nice to me) =p; bOOoReDdd!~ alright lah, gotta rest early le.. tml shopping time :p

2010-07-29T23:32:00.003+08:00

29th July 2010
Internal war in office? Christ*** & Cl****** seems to be.. er.....? lolx haiz cant help much ..
Anyway felt that the below hairstyle looks nice (perhaps perhaps you know..? haha =p)

Company's plan gathering! / Joe Farewell - 03rd Aug 2010

2010-07-27T22:49:00.007+08:00

Recollection of last week
[C******* called a meeting last week ago telling me & ng to help out the payroll temporary till they manage to find a suitable candidate..& he said we'll be compensated]

Both of us felt like he will just PUSH MORE WORKLOAD to us & nothing will be compensated.. (company is already like cutting down on costs.. do you know think that there will be something to reward us? we seriously DOUBT it, & felt that when we are too overly coped up with the additional workload, we believe "NO ONE will appreciate us for helping out on the additional workload whilst our OWN WORK is being neglected")..

26th July 2010
C***ene called me to his office,& he took out 1 SUPER BIG ENVELOPE & immediately i knew what it was.. ->CPF Occupational Wages Survey for June 2010.. *faints* he called El**** shortly into his office as well.. he wanted me to do the wages survey with El****before 12 Aug & submit..

(i was like *wat?? are you serious? =.=" why do i have to do that!) last yr was done ALL by the payroll executive who resigned; El**** really is pushing her work to others man.. *she still an go on saying she have to do end of the month payroll & resignees salary.. which means she will be too busy & wouldnt be able to finish before the deadline..

[i was like *wat the heck* you think you're the only one BUSY? *rawrs* super pissed but i couldn't reject it since its a request from C******* -damned it-

"Ng preached me after knowing that i took over her *workload* & felt that i should reject C******* request..." =sighs how to get the words out? zZz!=

even though i expected more or less that there will be more workload coming my way since J*e (payroll) will be returning back to her country(China) on the 04th Aug & there will only be 2 payroll personnel to manage abt 1.3k workers salary including mine? (~!@#$%^&#@!~!@#) i didn't expect it to HAPPEN SO FAST?! Joe is still around and yet it's being PUSHED to me..-______-"

*know what angers me even more?* i can still tolerate with the work pushed to me since it was assigned by C******* but what give you (El****) the right to PUSH your share of work to J*e (who's leaving company soon)? -why is she obligated to help you when you don't even deserve her help?- (o . o) even Joe said she wont be helping you, she'll be busy translating documents for Y** C***...

27th July 2010
Christ*** was checking the executive salary done by Ela***. Cant believe that Ela*** told Christ*** that she don't have to check her work on the salary.. without even letting C****** know.. she juz made decisions on her own? (=.=)"

for goodness sake.. doesn't E***** understand why is there a need for cross checking.. [i believe she doesn't like it when Christ*** spots all her errors, but does she prefer to double pay/ short pay people? especially since concerns the executive people?]

Know what happen jux now? Christ*** sneaky checked her work for executive payroll.. the new colleague Sam*** for QEHS is only 26 years old yet she put his DOB as 1969 which is 41 years old? -does she know what exactly she's doing???- everything is gonna be in such a mess- *she's gonna be SO DEAD when CPF is deducted wrongly & etc- not only that, she didn't include another of our colleague Ade**** accounts payable salary inside @ all.. is she going to be paid zero amount of salary for July 2010??

[seriously if SHE DARE to screw up my salary.. i'm soOOoo gonna *MURDER* her -__-"; mine doesn't even have any changes..kk!]

Furthermore, Ela*** works 5.5 days work week & she dares to absent herself from work on Saturdays repeatedly without informing her superior anything.. (i admire that she's so daring despite several verbal warning from C*******)..

Some more she submitted leave application stating that she will be on Unpaid leave on 07th July.. yet when she's doing her own payroll/ salary, she indicated as *Annual leave* (no deductions of salary!) which is like sOOoo dishonest!.. *blehs*

2010-07-21T00:43:00.013+08:00

= 20th July 2010 =
(im gonna summarize everything until SUPER SHORT, too lazy 2 elaborate :p) initially only applied half day leave.. in the end *sleepy head ting* overslept once again o_O" in the end msg colleague to change leave to 1 day..

Morning!~ after my mom knew that i'll staying @ home for the morning.. i kena "blackmailed" by her & have to accompany her to GIANT supermarket or else i wun get my LUNCH / i have to cook my own maggie mee?! *zZzz~ where gt mom like tat? o_O" [in the end accompany her to do some shopping~ there goes my time to catch more sheeps / ZzZz~ haa]

Afternoon!~ meet up wif fq to go for the spore garden festival!~shall only post some of the pics & thanks 2 fq's bf SAFRA card, we gt discounts for the admission :p; lvl 6 was awesome, after taking almost the whole level.. my camera battery died on me =(; in the end we switched to fq's camera (even her camera have mood swings & after sometime the whole camera actually "SHAKES/vibrant" very violently! shall post the video of the artistic vibrating of the camera if fq puts it up on facebook! -super nice effects-

After that mi & fq decides to quickly go Raffles Link there to grab some drinks @ Coffee bean..on the way there, heard someone called me~ kind of surprise.. as i turned & saw yy wif his friends.. (only turn & did a quick hi, before gg off wif fq..~) then had a short chit chatting sessions @ coffee bean.. called Fizah shortly & then was on our way to meet her & mw!~ =Dinner @ al-amin, then was the SUPER DUPER Belated Birthday celebration for fq & mw..

= 21st July 2010 =
(i believe it was an unconscious act..)
There was a new colleague @ work today..Samuel who'll be taking Audrey who'll be leaving near end of Sept as QEHS administrator?

= 22nd July 2010 =
*Ng msged me jux nw "reminding me to sleep early & some other words of encouragements".. he really felt a god-dad i guess~ always worrying abt me since tat day i slept late, was abit late for work & was dozing off on the bus ride back.. ~.~ thanks.. -really appreciate it-

*appreciated lotz also for Felicia encouragement on Facebook, i guess im really feeling down lately about work..* -sighs-

=25th July 2010=
Republic Polytechnic concert with sec sch band.. hmm if i would to use 1 word to describe i guess i would use *HORRIBLE*.. -> out of rhythm/beat, RUSHING like hell, not following the conductor & wrong notes for the band & i guess myself too?

i cant even see the score when we started playing.. the stand was not @ the appropriate height & my trombone bells are blocking the left side of the score.. wat the ~~ *sighs* anyway felt like this concert was SUPER SHORT & wasnt much interaction?

Haa.. & below is the only pic taken with the juniors who seems so reluctant on taking the pic (not even looking @ the camera!~) aiyooOoo they so heartless lor =GUYS ar!= & thanks to wl for being the only junior who bought seniors -ritz strudel-

& thanks to Mr Lim for giving us *roses* ^^ had pic with our *Maths & Science Teacher* (hmm, doubt Mr Lim actually remembers me, cos i also MIA for like ermm... super duper LONG?? haa~

2010-07-18T00:18:00.009+08:00

16th July 2010
haix.. totally screwed up the road tax renewal for *Eng choon* vehicle..*didn't know tat his vehicle was 2nd hand & the insurance wasn't even insured till the renewal period.. *only realized it when it actually expired on the day itself zZzz.. -im so dead cos 1 day late renewal = $50 additional o_O" how am i going to answer 4it..?

ended work around 6pm & went back wif colleague *ng*.. (>.<) we had a long chit chatting at the mrt station..about 20 mins? he was telling me things like dun be so innocent when im working in office.. dun be so trusting towards people around in the office..& not follow too much along with Christine's decisions; i believe he's worried that she'll might be a bad influence as he seems to feel that Christine cared more about herself than me?? afterall most humans are selfish...

-how to not trust the people around u? seriously i dunno how to do it, i guess i have yet to achieve that sort of level ..perhaps that's also why sometimes it- ♥ hurts? [few weeks ago, Christine told me tat it seems like ***** lim was saying some bad things about the way i does my work to **arence (my new HR manager).. @_@ ♥ it felt uncomfortable after hearing things like tat when ***** lim seems to be acting all friendly & nice when talking with us =.="

i believe i would felt 10x better if i didn't hear about it.. perhaps i prefer to remain in my delusional dream that all the people/colleagues in the office are actually nice people?

really felt unmotivated about working after my previous HR manager got transferred to another sister company (reason why he was transferred? *heard tat **** lim told "V" somethings .. & V managed to persuade his dad to transfer __ out?) it seriously SUCKS when seeing people backstabs someone who's nice to others..

& it also seems like **arence are taking some things overly caution.. decisions that he should make are being PUSHED to the Operation managers.. *what a clever trick to shift all the responsibilities to someone else with just a few crappy reasoning*

then *ng* also talked with me about finding "the one" as it's now the best time to broaden my circles rather wait till im out of the appropriate "age" ~_~" even though i told him then i wana let things take its flow but he seems to object and believe its all a matter of effort on looking/searching? *haa* *anyway really appreciate the care that he showers after __ got transferred out.. he even ask me to chip in on totos eg the 3mil draw ~knowing tat im actually earning/saving up for uni.. [真的很谢谢你！是打从心里的谢谢你。]

17th July 2010
went for band practice ard 1.30pm today..super sianx cos the juniors never helped to set up my instrument.. nvm i go set it up myself~ *took Wei liang's Jupiter trombone & after i finished setting it up & was on the way to the hall for the combined rehearsal practice..* midway Desmond came & said that "wei liang" will be coming & using his instrument; feeling super sianx diao, i shoved wei liang's trombone to him to bring to the hall & ran back to the band room to set up *soffian's jupiter trombone*...

just after i finished setting up Soffian trombone & got out of the band room.. Desmond came back & said that "Kings told him wrongly & Wei liang wont be playing" i was like "Are you KIDDING me"?? making me set up 2 instruments and only telling me that now? lolx, In the end i asked Desmond to KEEP Soffian instrument for me "who asked him to 耍 me - making me repeatedly set up 2 instruments-

then we went back to the hall for tuning sessions~ as i use Wei liang's Jupiter trombone~ when it was our section turn for tuning Mr goh was telling Desmond (SL) to use the other Jupiter trombone- which was Soffian's trombone instead of his current crapping trombone that has a dent in the 4th positions & it was super difficult to play notes beyond the 4th positions (*tried playing b4 wif Desmond trombone as replacement, horrible slide indeed*)

[Haha~ den i sua-ed 酸 Desmond about going BACK again to the band room & re-set up Soffian trombone 1 more time to use for the rehearsal practice.. haha~ in the end he said he'll use that Jupiter trombone for the next band practice =) haa, had fun teasing him)! who ask him to make me suffer so much running here & there & sweat like crazy =p]

& there it goes our rehearsal practice together with Princess Elizabeth primary school~ Zzz, i cant believe that we actually played 3times for tangle wood overture!~ played until my lips are totally numb & cant even reach the high notes anymore! same goes for Desmond i guess.. he was even slacking & not playing for some parts! *even smacked him hard in the back to get him to play* haa!~ then wei liang came & joined us for practice, *THANK GOD* cos my lips nearly died due to excessive tries of pitching HIGH notes~ *argh, whether hw am i gg to survive the whole concert pitching so many high notes o_O"*

after practice ended~ went for yw's 21st celebration wif rui xing!~ ^^ ty 4 the invitation =)

2010-07-05T20:28:00.002+08:00

5th July 2010

zZzz!~ Super horrible day to start the week.. due to the news as below!

i wasnt expecting myself to be one of the victims left *penniless* for the start of the week due to the glitch -____-"

tis morning.. went out happily & intended to withdrawn some spare cash + top up my ez-link card... (i was sOooO happy when i saw no one queuing at the atm machine.. =went over to the atm machine & both machine was *temporary out of service*

sianz diao.. then went over to the ezlink card top up machine.. slot in the atm card waiting for payment to be approved & yet a screen saying not connected/not approved or smthing =___="
tried to go through the mrt.. but have error msg saying i need to top up my ezlink card.. o_O!!!

den took a bus to Boon lay to try my luck at the atms at Jurong Point.. (spent $1.. for the bus trip).. after i reached, went around 2 locations which have the atms available, *same out of service msg* (*faints & panicking.. was nearly gg to call for SOS already! cos even if i take a taxi, i doubt the Atm will get approved, so the penniless ting..went to the mrt station & bought the standard ticket for one trip to JE.. $2.20.. left with only 10cents in my wallet) o(>_<)o

gt to JE & gt refunded $1 for the ticket.. & took a bus to work after tat (thankfully, wif tat pathetic $2+ in my ezlink card.. it's still able to get me to work without dying out on me) *phew*

& tat's the story of how penniless im was to start the day... (*argh, i shd haf withdraw more spare cash on hand nxt time -____-")

2010-07-03T22:09:00.010+08:00

3rd July
The ultimate Horoscope analysis.. if you're bored, do take a look ^^ quite interesting

星座終極完美分析

處女座

都說處女座另類，雙重性格，甚至有點神經質。

其實原因只有一個，處女座的一切都要隨自己外顯的性格而轉，姑且稱之為"狀態"。處女座狀態好的時候，可以將自己聰明、細膩、能幹、溫情、幽默、有內涵等優良品質完全外展，此時他們顯得如此完美，光芒四射，並且可以表現得非常外向、健談，容易與人打成一片（這本非他們的性格）。而一旦處女座狀態不好，便會變成另一個人，甚至非常窩囊，一事無成，不過通常此時他們都躲避外在的干擾,所以讓人感覺有點間歇性自閉症)因為同為水星守護，所以處女和雙子一樣善變，但雙子善變的是心思，處女善變的卻是情緒。
　　
很多時候處女座要面對很多實際的瑣事，這時的處女座便不得不在冷中面對周圍世界：要麼說話做事很不自然，有做作的痕跡；要麼便極度冷漠和被動，對誰都不理不睬。其實處女座很清楚自己現在的樣子，但他們無力改變和控制自己的情緒，只能選擇瘋狂地逃避一切。

他們想的是：與其很不自然地面對你，尷尬地和你說些無關痛癢地話，或是因和平時反差太大而被人說成表裡不一，性格怪異，還不如先躲一陣子，等調節好了以後再出來。所以，在與人交往中，他們只會和不得不交流的人（實在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正無所謂）交談，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏遠。

所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越遠。特別是戀人.

而且,大家都知道處女座的人有嚴重的完美主義傾向,所以就有了所謂的\\"處女座的人最喜歡若即若離\\"。原因很簡單：他只想給你一個最好最完美的自己，而不願讓你看到他無助脆弱的一面。所以請記住，有時處女座對你冷，絕不是你說錯做錯什麼，這是他們正常的生理現象，他們只是不想讓嚴寒和冰霜傷害了你（可事實上這種做法已經傷害）。不必難過，因為他們在乎你的話，他們的內心比你還要難過、自責和內疚！他們所能做的，只希望快點調整好情緒，回到你的身邊。

正基於以上兩點，處女座有時便會表現出非常另類的行為和思維模式。他們的性格也很多來源於此：不喜主動，不善交際（也可以熱情，只是今天熱了，終有一天會冷的），不愛表現，不喜拋頭露面（萬一哪天情緒無法把握狀態不好時，豈不大失臉面），諸如此類。

關於"潔癖"——並非處女都有潔癖，很多處女座並不愛乾淨，但卻要求整潔，他們更多的是井然有序，不喜歡別人破壞他們所整理和佈置的"完美"格局。處女座更多的是有精神潔癖。一旦觸碰到他們精神上的禁區，嚴重時會表現得歇斯底里。

關於"花心"——一般說來處女座絕不花心，忠誠是他們的代名詞。異性關係多很可能是他們需要確定一個好人緣和自己有魅力，來反擊那些普遍觀點。一旦找到心中真愛，他會呵護你一輩子，只要你能給他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。尋花問柳，紅杏出牆這些事與他們絕緣（一是責任感所致，二是怕麻煩）。

關於"聰明"——不似雙子靈活機巧，不像水瓶創意非凡，也不是天蠍的那種計畫周密，處女座更多體現的是智慧。細膩、理性、好學加上十二星座裡一流的洞察力和最強的邏輯思維能力，處女座想不聰明都難。沒事少在處女座面前信口開河，隨意撒謊，很多偽紗他們一眼便能看透；也別跟他們玩什麼心計，你玩不過他們的。處女是那種可以把你賣了你還得向他道謝的類型。沒事也少跟處女座辯論，他們沒理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一條理來。處女是永遠不會吃虧的。

關於"單純"——處女座很純真，但絕不單純，他們內心複雜得讓人難以想像，很多不經意的事可能都是他們精心佈置的。處女座也總在純潔和好色之間徘徊，這一點最難說清。不過他們真正的內心是極其善良的，
寧可自己苦也不願傷害任何人，心靈如水晶一般晶瑩剔透。

關於"幽默"——都說處女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他們接觸吧，你會體會到什麼是冷幽默，什麼是真正的幽默，而並非品位低俗的搞笑。

關於"遲鈍"——別看你和處女座說某些提議時他們半天才反應過來，在你說好的一瞬間，他們腦子裡可能已經轉過五六個你這項提議會造成的後果（通常是消極後果）了。他們總是想得太多，絕非想得太慢。

關於"自私"——處女座的自私覺不是獅子的那種惟我獨尊，也不是水瓶的以自我為中心。處女座正因為是無私的，所以顯得自私。（能夠理解嗎？）因為處女不想傷害任何人。

關於"逃避"——由於處女座性格上的因素，他們通常會顯得壓力很大。當週遭的事物已無法掌控，或是自己的情緒無法調節好時，他們會瘋狂地逃避，墮落自己，這種狀況通常對別人無害，卻是傷害自己，讓所有愛他們的人感到心碎。不過不用太擔心，過一陣子他們自己會好的，他們天性的自我批判精神很快便會起作用。處女座一般不會徹底墮落，墮落前可能都已留有餘地，只是在等待著希望的來臨。甚至有時墮落都是做給別人看的。

關於"內涵"——處女座有涵養這一點是肯定的。在成長中不斷吸取教訓，不斷學習，取人之長來豐富自己的內涵。因為他們感覺到情緒無法把握，而這些是自己可以踏踏實實做到的，將來一定有幫助。這是他們所追求的完美主義目標。

處女座就是一個表面神秘到難以琢磨，說穿了卻又很簡單的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，處女座喜歡這樣
來標榜自己。因為他們確實有超凡脫俗的一面。他們的內心接近了神，可是身在這個世界，不能不食人間煙火吧，所以必須得戴著一個面具活在這個世界上。

處女座喜歡和人說些曖昧的話，對心儀的對象卻不好意思表白。
處女座希望別人瞭解自己，卻又只將能公佈的那一部分對外展示。
處女座是最有責任感的人了，可很多時候卻害怕承擔責任。
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天蠍座

天蠍，生於秋深。性喜靜，意清幽。愛之切，怨亦深。本質輕名利，但擁有成名得利的天賦。偏重靈與肉的完美結合。直覺力之準之銳，行動力之瀟灑之特,常令徒有虛表之人忌憤不已。天蠍，一個別具一格的星座。格調分明有別常人，心胸高妙不露於表。常容人難容之事，亦笑人可笑之處。

對於朋友，重質不重量，高度要求知心。寧可孤獨，也不違心。對於愛情，寧缺毋濫。寧可抱憾終生，也不苟且湊合。風流不羈的言行下，執著追求一種宗教意識的愛情信仰。內心具有高度責任性，忠誠性，自律性以及矛盾性。浪漫儒雅，風趣超脫。擁有奇異誘人的容貌氣質。根本上，提倡由愛生性的性愛模式，鄙視純粹的獸性性行為，但，自己卻又常在意志薄弱時，自虐般地沉溺其間。

天蠍大多恩怨分明，黑白絕不混餚。猶如包公，寧可得罪眾官，也要獎懲公道。多思少言的特質，齊全透徹的智慧，使一切真相假面恐慌不已。因此，本質靜默孤僻的天蠍們極易招惹他人的非難和灌上莫須有的罪名。而其強硬又柔弱的本質，常使其背負黑鍋也不辯護，不低頭。典型的"獨當千古錯，冷漠自逍遙"的天蠍風格。只有在忍無可忍時，天蠍才會真正採取報復行為。可也因其很多時候過於忍辱負重，好比老實人發火，報復也就更顯突兀強勁，反令圓滑的小人真正的禍首們惱羞成怒，藉機大肆渲染。由於天蠍有隱忍為善的一面，更有別緻的獨特氣質，從而也導致了天蠍倍受他人嫉妒卻常被反咬一口的現象出現。也因為典型的天蠍,並不擅長疏通改善人際關係，更不善於有效地表達澄清自己，從而成為了十二星座裡最具爭議的一個星座。

天蠍們擁有天賦般靈性的思維，結合現實的洞察，產生了異於常人的思索角度。愛情觀，友情觀，人生觀，皆如此。由於意識超常，天蠍們總是：苦於紅塵無知音，不如隱形愛孤獨。天蠍的確就是這樣極端：不是最另類的現代人，就是最另類的原始人。

人們研究天蠍的誤區在於沒有能力到達天蠍的心理根本。

其實，天蠍們一生都在尋求知心的朋友，同時他們也容忍對手的存在，但，並非製造敵人。要知道，天蠍本性不好戰，但具備戰鬥的智慧和能量。請注意：這是關鍵。所以你可以成為天蠍的對手和朋友，但，不要把天蠍當敵人。因為，天蠍從不主動侵犯他人的利益。你也不要做些低層次的敵對事情，那只能顯得你自己無聊挫敗。比如：如果你煽動眾人，想用流言蜚謠打擊算計，甚至孤立天蠍，那麼不久你就會發現天蠍依舊活得很灑脫，很獨特。因為，他們本來沒有把你當敵人，某種意義上，是你自己"自作多情"，以小人之心度君子之腹了。而這種俗不可耐的敵對伎倆，對於天蠍們來說，無疑是一堆可笑差勁的破招。

天蠍生性渴望理解,卻不奢求理解，安於孤獨，更能樂於孤獨。天蠍的優勢在於，對於別有用心的人，能夠一眼看穿，並完全做到視若無睹。也許，當你自鳴得意時，天蠍想的正是——不和這頭牲口一般見識！看，天蠍就是這樣的心態，清高地忍讓，憂鬱地承受，卻，酷得乾脆利落，宛如一位高超的劍手，不是不過招，只是你非對手。為什麼你非對手，因為你已經把自己立意為敵人。

對於敵人，不用過招。興趣無時不屑一顧。興趣來時，一劍定勝負。這種徹骨的冷靜和孤高，也正是天蠍人雖不招惹別人，卻還是招致陰險有毒的惡名的根本。而，也只有天蠍自己知道，真正惡毒的其實是你！但是，一切也都沒有用，要知道，能夠忍受孤獨的人，也就是最無所畏懼的人了。這也就是天蠍為什麼可以在鋪天蓋地的惡名謠傳裡，依舊活出自己風格的原因。某個角度來說，才思橫溢的天蠍人，正是從別人不切實際的攻擊誹謗裡，看到了自己與眾不同的價值。因為，沒有人會化很大的心血很多的精力，對一個平庸無常的人做太多的關注。顯然，天蠍是別具一格的。

我本善良，我本真實，這樣的句子，用在天蠍身上是最恰當不過了。每隻天蠍似乎從出生那天起，就注定要為自己的獨特而歷經許多風波。對於人性，天蠍從來看得比所有人透徹。

可以說他們極端，但是，他們無法不真實地活出自己。也許，只有"曲高合寡"這四個字，才是孤獨奇特的天蠍們最好的詮釋。

天蠍。星象書上說，誕生在深秋的蠍子是最複雜的。同意這句話。因為蠍子可以根據需要在具體環境把自己塑造成適合的角色，是個善於戴著面具生活的人。但內心本我的強大力量又讓他們在某個時刻不由自主地顯現出其蠍子冷酷陰鬱的一面。幾乎沒有任何一個蠍子座的人可以逃避這點。因為，本質的東西，深植於骨髓，扎根於靈魂。

這裡，我希望通過自己的一點薄見，和大家一起認識這最複雜的蠍子情感強烈是蠍子座的人最普遍的特點。我至今沒有發現感情因子欠乏的蠍子。他們有著異常熾熱的感情，但大多藏得較深，平時看來是個比較和氣的人，一般不爆發，爆發時絕對是噴湧而出的，有著強大的震懾力.

能促使蠍子爆發深藏的感情的事情其實並不多。我總結了三種情況。

一是欺騙，這種欺騙也許不是很大，也許發生在很好的朋友甚至親友之間，也許只是一樁小事，但蠍子看來，重要的不是欺騙造成了什麼損失，而是欺騙這種行為本身，他認為這是強烈的不信任感，是對他的不尊重。一個小小的欺騙在蠍子的心中會激盪起巨大的不快，天性陰冷的蠍子習慣將它放大來看，也可以說這種與他們處事風格準則背道而弛的行為是他們輕蔑並排斥的。用欺騙傷害蠍子產生的裂痕一般是不容易消除的。

當事人在蠍子心中的地位可以說馬上會大幅下降。經觀察，沒有哪個星座的人像蠍子這樣如此深地看重信任和尊重這兩個詞，他們一般對此都很敏感。敏感得容下不在他許可的小小範圍內出現一粒沙。越是親密關係間的欺騙對蠍子的傷害就越大。因為他們對朋友往往交出真心，而這種付出償來的若是欺騙和背叛的話，蠍子的心會冷到極點。

二是侮辱。敏感的蠍子其實並不那麼開得起玩笑，當然他們能敏銳地分辨出你話裡的真實含義，善意的玩笑他們還是不會拒絕的。但帶刺的話他們絕對能馬上聽出，他能感受到你語氣中的真實的感情成分。很自我的蠍子絕對不容忍別人侮辱他貶低他。也許一件事情讓他糟糕，讓他吃虧很大，但如果需要的話他能壓抑住自己的情緒，裝作若無其事。惟獨侮辱不可以，你可以感受到蠍子那一刻表情越發陰冷，牙關緊閉。那是他在積蘊力量，你能感受得到他強壓怒火的眼神，開始起伏的胸膛，只需要一個小小突破口，巨大的能量就要噴薄而出。

這個時候，瞭解他們的人還是趕緊收口吧，否則誰都不知道會發生什麼可怕的事情。我自己就經歷過多次這樣的情景，從來都是是猛烈的瞬間爆發，不明白的人奇怪怎麼突然發這麼大脾氣，其實真實情況是，他忍著氣已經很久很久了，只是你硬逼他爆發的。

三是為了他認為重要的人。蠍子是活得孤獨的人，他們自己都會發現，自己和許多人是格格不入的，他滿臉的笑容很多時候都不是發自內心的，只是為了場合的需要，真正談得來並懂得他們的朋友一般很少很少。生命中他重視的人他一定會傾力保護，蠍子為了保護那個人時，顯現出的感情是強大的。這個人最大的可能就是曾在蠍子需要時給過真正理解溫暖關愛的人。哪怕是一點點。

像會記恨一樣，蠍子對那些對他真心好的人絕對是記在心上的，沒有太多的表面的東西，關鍵的時候，真正肯為你犧牲的那個朋友，肯定是他。對他最愛的那個人而言，蠍子有可能的話甚至肯為她去死。如果他心中的那個她被別人傷害的話，蠍子會有剜心的痛，這個時候，他可能會暴露出最陰暗的一面，如果要把報復和蠍子聯繫起來的話，那麼這種情況當屬第一。蠍子這時候可能會在巨痛的驅使下，用最黑暗的力量為她去復仇去摧毀敵人。在我看來，蠍子最最強烈感情表現出來的時候，應該就是他為了保護她的時候。

水象之王的蠍子外表看來往往不那麼強硬，甚至有點軟弱，這是很多人對他們的印象，但瞭解他們的內心的人就會發現，他們是討厭被指使的人。可以說，蠍子是吃軟不吃硬的，平等對他的話，他便是個性子很好的人，要是想壓制他，蠍子內心馬上會排斥，並且潛意識裡他們是很厭惡習慣對他們指手畫腳的人的。他們心中多數是不服，但不會明顯表現出來，也許暫時地順著對方，背後則默默積累力量，也許乾脆用冷漠直接表示拒絕和厭惡。蠍子確實是喜歡掌控別人的人，但不像火象的獅子那種氣焰上統領一切的感覺，蠍子能用一種獨特的暗藏的力量影響人，因為他有著洞穿別人內心的敏銳力和堅定沉靜的氣質。

如果蠍子具備一些火象性格的話，則會是個讓人感覺非常凌厲的人，冷靜的外表下說起話做起事來霸氣十足。蠍子如果學著性格張揚一點的話，會馬上顯現出強大的領導力。蠍子對自己的愛人也有著強烈的掌控欲，只有當那個她只對他一個人好的時候，他才感覺安心，他希望她能常陪在他身邊，希望她能經常依靠他，所以小鳥依人般的溫柔甜蜜的女孩子最能激起蠍子愛的感覺。這就解釋了為什麼他和水象的魚兒和巨蟹很和得來的原因。

蠍子比較喜歡不帶表情的說話做事，可以說，蠍子很難學會用表情表達他們豐富的內心世界，他們是不善於利用表情的人。蠍子本質是不愛笑的，尤其不習慣在一大堆人之間肆無忌憚地笑，蠍子習慣淺淺地一笑，讓他們在眾人面前表情誇張地保持10秒鐘我相信是件困難的事情。

他們確實常給人缺乏親和力的印象，哪怕是他已經認識到了這點並試著去改變了，結果還是會發現，一不留神，他和人的距離感又莫名地產生了。可以說蠍子的笑保留著人類某種原始的東西，蠍子笑起來會帶著絲羞澀，特別是在人多或異性面前。看起來非常孩子氣，讓人感覺純真，顯得乖巧。但蠍子多笑真的比較重要，蠍子笑起來純樸真誠的樣子可以很好地打消他們在別人心中不好的印象。

蠍子可以多對著鏡子練習練習。敏感的蠍子有時會莫名地收住笑容，這會給別人不好的印象，他們會納悶並猜想你突然沉下臉的原因，很多時候，蠍子和人的隔閡就是這麼產生的。

在蠍子的生命中總有一種嚮往孤獨的特質。

他們即使在受不了淒寂的同時，又渴望得到只有在孤獨時才能享受到的自我極致發揮和無絲毫保留的面對現實。

所以，孤獨的蠍子是矛盾的。孤獨中他們的心靈像眼睛，誠實敏銳得揉不進一粒塵沙。

所以，孤獨的蠍子更能洞悉謊言與人心。他們只有在孑然一身的時候，才有機會登上精神的高峰，望得遠，看得清，障礙盡除，思維如月光染雪，剔透通明，理智與感情皆回歸到最純淨的狀態，能清楚的照亮自己。

所以，孤獨的蠍子睿智。

當蠍子被身邊的孤獨包圍的時候，他們的內心卻是在釋放。他們的身體和靈魂變成了過濾器，吸取著潮濕冰冷的空氣，滲透出清澈甘甜的水滴，那就是他們的思想。思想無限流動，不受空間和時間的限制，抵達所有相通的靈魂。

所以，當到達你的靈魂時，請你好好珍惜。

當你看到陌生人面前孤僻而冷淡的蠍子時，請你見諒，因為即興發揮不是蠍子的強項，蠍子一向預熱很慢，感情需要很大的安全感才能活潑的施展。

所以，當你想要瞭解那些外表形單影隻，獨來獨往的蠍子時，請細心的感受他們內在活動的勃放如春。

對於天蠍座的激情別人已經寫得夠多的了，以致再寫就顯得有點多餘了。其實那些描述嚴格地來說，也不完全正確。天蠍座的人確實擁有過量的激情。但是這些熱情不一定是用一種顯而易見的方式來表達的。對於天蠍座的人來說，性是一種表達的途徑，它是一種達到秩序的方法，而不僅僅是肉體上激情的釋放。

天蠍座對性和愛的渴望，通常與它們能提供的轉變有關。他們喜歡把性與愛稱作自己所喜歡的名字：一次神秘的經歷、一次深層次的體會。性與愛讓天蠍座向比他們自己更強大的事物投降。天蠍座的伴侶有一種巨大的容忍力，他們為了愛情和忠貞可以犧牲一切。他們甚至可以做出巨大的自我犧牲。在他們身上有一點狂熱，這會滲透到他們與別人建立的關係中，並且影響他們的精神和態度。

天蠍座是不會在淺的池塘裡划水的。他們縱身跳入遠遠淹過他們的頭的深度的汪洋。但是有時候可悲的是，在天蠍座所處的關係中釋放出來的狂熱，有時候會導致他們極端的猜疑，並且會讓他們產生強烈的佔有慾。假如天蠍座的人正陷入在愛情當中的時候，這種情況往往就會發生。假如他們沒有真正談戀愛的話，那麼他們情感的大門就永遠不會在你面前出現，你將面臨真正的情感上的堅冰。
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巨蟹座

巨蟹是心軟的，容易被感動，即使表面看起來總是有一副硬硬的殼，但那殼子底下是一顆柔軟敏感到極至的內心。它們面對一份感情是猶豫再三的，不要說它們懦弱，它們只是明白自己是容易受傷的。他們對感情抱有信仰，相信純真、相信天長地久，所以有時是挑剔的。
這是一層表面堅硬的殼，其實攻克輕而易舉，因為蟹蟹有一顆柔軟的心。

蟹蟹戀愛了，這時的它們變的很粘人，很婆媽，因為你是它的中心，它會為你考慮很多，飯吃了嗎？天氣會變了嗎？記得帶傘哦！路上車多，慢點走哦！……..諸如此類！

蟹蟹是深情而癡情的，愛上一個人會愛的很深，即使明知道沒有結果也很難自拔。這是巨蟹的一種固執，想要得到的東西，往往不會輕易放手。有時，一段沒有結果的戀情會成為蟹蟹的生活重心。這無疑是痛苦的，但又難以自拔。然而，巨蟹的不安全感又在內心大叫著放棄，所以這時的蟹蟹總是在堅持和放棄的巨大矛盾中苦苦煎熬著。學會放棄是蟹蟹的一門功課.

當然，如果蟹蟹真的決定放棄了，它的堅決會讓所有人吃驚。
要記住：除了你自己，沒有人可以傷害到你
蟹子是癡情的，但又不善於表達，面對自己心愛的人拘謹、放不開。它們的幽默感此刻變得生澀。蟹子是深情的，但又不善於把握，為什麼一次次控制不住自己的情緒，說出明知不該講的話？

分裂而善於幻想的寄居蟹在說巨蟹之前，先說說幾個一直以來欣賞的幾個偶像，他們都不同，但他們有一個共同點，就是，他們都是巨蟹男。周星馳，王家衛，羅大佑，李宗盛，梁朝偉，張學友……一般在每次排行榜中總是靠末的巨蟹們，看起來並沒有很明顯的個性，但是，他們在藝術方面的直覺和敏銳卻是別人難以匹敵，從這幾個人名裡就不難看出。他們在生活中都是溫文爾雅的，被動的，甚至往往是沉默的，但是在他們的電影，歌曲中，卻展露出令人驚異的才華，讓我們總是不由自主的為之傾倒。當周星馳讓我們笑得淚水橫流的時候，我們也早聽聞其實戲外的他認真嚴肅，不苟言笑，對待朋友和情人都很苛刻；我們知道在戲裡演什麼都神形畢似的影帝梁朝偉同性格南轅北轍的射手劉嘉玲20多年同居，至今都不願結婚，他總是說，其實他的人生就是在戲裡；我們知道張學友出道前曾經是黑社會的小混混，天天宿醉，自暴自棄，也看到張學友成名後依然為了家庭拚命打拼，幾近崩潰……

這就是巨蟹，其實，最能說明巨蟹特質的，就是－－分裂無論是哪一種蟹，他們都有著分裂的思想。他們渴望安定，也渴望出人頭地，他們內心充滿藝術的靈感，誇張的幻象，但是在現實生活中，他們總是低眉順眼，很難真正展露心中的狂想。所以在藝術的舞台上，他們反而得以施展，讓心中奇異的狂想放大到極致，他們可以將任何一首歌一個角色演繹的入木三分，所有來自於生活中被動的接受，在藝術的殿堂上得到了最好的宣洩，所以巨蟹真的應該屬於舞台。即使沒有好的歌喉沒有好的外形，但是他們有良好的感受力和表現力，他們的性格實際上更像是一隻寄居蟹，在真正自我的生活中，他們常常將自己包裹的很緊，但在詮釋和演繹別人的時候，他們那內心的感情得到了釋放。

巨蟹座的另一個長處是他們有著哲學的思考力世界因兩股力量相互消長，而水象就是典型的陰柔之力。水象星座的人有一種天生的宇宙觀，巨蟹也是如此，加之他們天生有母愛的情結，所以他們的思考往往帶有著人性化的關懷。所以從事與藝術相關的行業的巨蟹，無論如何都可以算是幸運的巨蟹，因為能夠得以發揮天然的性格所長。但是不是每個巨蟹都有這樣的機會，所以大多數巨蟹都會感到自己的壓抑和痛苦。他們不是沒有渴望，相反他們需求很多，渴望很多，但是他們總是躲在自己的殼裡做著各式各樣的幻夢，只是在想，很少實施。所以如果你看到的總是低眉順眼的巨蟹實際上並不是真正的巨蟹。那只是巨蟹的一個假象。

永遠無法抹去的自卑巨蟹們其實是自我感覺很好的心高氣傲的一群人，但是卻又難以克服時時刻刻想躲進殼裡的自卑感。他們天生多疑和敏感，碰到困難，就先躲進殼裡，自欺欺人，在夢中編織自我的安全感，而從來沒有想到如何主動將危機轉化為機遇。他們對待困難的消極方式，使他們總很難真正木秀於林，他們總在捕捉他們認為最好的時機，但是那個時機卻總是無法到來，其實世間哪有萬全之策？當蟹蟹們艱苦的自我互博之時，大好時機已經失去。但是要改變這種天生的自卑感確乎很難，蟹蟹們幾乎完全不由自主。

懷舊是巨蟹們的人生主旋律巨蟹們非常懷舊。他們喜歡舊東西，懷戀舊感情，對家庭有著天然的眷戀。泛黃的相片，褪色的絲帶，塵封的梳妝台……所有一切帶有浪漫情調的舊物，都可以讓他們獨自神傷，黯然追想，他們總是沉浸在過去的回憶裡，永遠記得年少時的孤寂敏感，永遠記得初戀情人，多年後仍然四處找尋初戀情人的消息，慰籍多年來始終保持新鮮的記憶。所以王家衛的電影總喜歡用這樣的句式開頭：多年以後……

忽冷忽熱患得患失的愛情他們天生悲觀，永遠需要多一點，更多一點的安全感。為什麼他們如此需要安全感，因為他們天生就沒有安全感，所以他們是很容易恐慌的，所以他們也就變得非常的多疑和猜忌。愛上一個巨蟹是要仔細思量的，因為他們會突然忽冷忽熱，突然置之不理，突然惡言相向，但是其實他們並非不愛你，他們有時候是在跟自己嘔氣。他們渴望天天24小時同你粘在一起，他們對愛人有著強烈的佔有慾，恨不得掏心掏肺給你，他們關注你的點點滴滴，小到為你買一支發卡，大到幫你選擇哪路公車……他們都費勁心思，他們時時刻刻每件事都為你考量，但又因為付出的不停增加而變得越來越擔心害怕，會不會得不到對等的愛。

所以他們會突然變得冷淡了，也許只因為你一個眼神，他們就覺得你已經不如從前，於是開始無休止的試探，他們說話總是轉彎抹角，但是卻總希望你永遠清晰表態，假設某天你也含糊了一下，那就完了，蟹蟹們立刻條件反射的開始惴想出無數個虛擬場景，在無盡的悲觀中，意淫出種種悲慘場面，然後再見你時，就已經是冷口冷面，甚至說出無比絕情的話語－－所以，你和巨蟹的他們，是要努力去磨合的，給他們足夠的信賴和安全，他們回饋你的，絕對讓你感動的熱淚盈眶。

虛偽包裝下易感的心實際上巨蟹善於偽裝。他們喜歡笑，無論何時何地，他們常常微笑，也許這笑容有時候讓人欣慰，但有時候卻會讓人感到非常的虛偽。當然巨蟹們也總有自己的小奸小壞，但是他們虛偽的前提卻總是先為了保護自己。他們對自己應得的利益是淄銖必較，有時候會讓人感到他們是不是很小心眼，但是，在朋友聚會等場合上，他們又絕對是豪爽大方，主動搶著付賬的人。所以其實巨蟹是個公私概念很明確的人，他們對該得的絕對毫不客氣，而對待朋友，他們又覺得其實這點錢根本不算什麼。他們是眷戀朋友和家人的，他們基本都有些喜歡酒。而且酒量都還不錯，因為他們眷戀那種賓客相盡歡的氣氛，更眷戀著家的和樂融洽之感。所以巨蟹們喜歡做飯，即使不會做飯也對美食有天然偏愛，他們懂得享受居家生活，所以巨蟹們有個理想婚姻是最快樂的事情。問題是巨蟹們卻常常選擇晚婚或不結婚，因為他們多疑又害怕，他們總是對新幻境充滿懷疑，對新的家庭又嚮往又拒絕，在自我矛盾中，不斷蹉跎了年華。

自己為自己創造安定感覺巨蟹們總是不安，這是一種不好的感覺，因為如此，許多巨蟹枉然蹉跎，終日鬱鬱。其實，巨蟹們可以嘗試自己為自己創造安定的感覺。找一個家裡人都喜歡的對象，建立一個自己的家，也許巨蟹會發現自己會變得安穩很多。找個摩羯是比較理想的選擇。或者找一個自己的愛好，傾注所有的心血，自己也會變得安定很多。當然蟹蟹們也許會說，你這是站著說話不腰疼啊，要是那麼容易的話，還用得著你說嗎？呵。但是，無論怎樣，當我們自己意識到自己的不安，就該努力去克服他，其實殼外的世界，沒有那麼可怕，這是真的。

總的說來，巨蟹們很可愛，尤其是在藝術上有成就的那些人，他們創造的都是令人仰止的豐碑，所以巨蟹們不必沒來由自卑，其實你們都很出色。
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獅子座

一個博愛和充滿陽光，能量的星座。

其實獅子座的人很嚮往愛情，他所擁有的愛情有的時候不是真的愛情，或者只是一種嚮往或者是自己的夢想，說白了就是獅子座的人最愛的是自己，他要讓自己發光發熱，獲得別人的愛和崇敬，在這其中，他能夠體會到這種來自他人的關愛而感到愉悅，於是，他就愛上了別人。。。可是，獅子座的我們想想，仔細想想，你真的愛了嗎？真的像你說的那樣的愛嗎？

究其根本，我們愛了，是因為我們愛自己，獅子座的人的自戀程度可以說是十二星座之首，他可以因為別人的崇拜的目光或者是弱勢的態度而展現自己的愛和博大胸襟，但是，這不是純粹的愛；

此外，獅子座的人很喜歡征服感，或者他不愛你，或者還不足夠愛你，但是為了一份征服感，他或者會"愛"上你，以證明自己的非凡魅力，當然，獅子座的人很不願意傷害別人，因為他的內心是善良和充滿正義感的，他是重視原則的人，但是，如果他做了傷害別人的事情，即便出於面子他沒有說什麼，但是其實內心裡他會真的好自責好內疚的，雖然別人看不到，但是他的確會好難過。

獅子座的人，無論男女，都很容易陷入一份感情，但是熱情來的很快，冷卻的速度也快得驚人，我不知道別人是不是這樣，我是真的這樣的。如果他可以對一份感情持續很長的時間，那麼恭喜了，說明你真的很強勢很有魅力，足以讓他對你死心塌地，否則，獅子座這種內在沒有安全感又很敏感的動物，很可能從更有魅力和新鮮的事物上找溫暖，因為，獅子座的我們看起來好堅強好陽光好樂觀，但是骨子裡面的不安感從未消退過，表面的自信只不過是保護自己的盔甲，但並不是很真實。

同時，獅子座的人也可以很絕情，這點我認識所有的獅子座的人也包括我自己都很像，不可能吃回頭草，字典裡沒有"後悔"或者"回頭"這兩個詞，因為獅子座的人很愛面子，自尊心比什麼都重要，一旦放棄了或者決定了，就不可能回過頭去改變，獅子座的人也很怕被傷害。作為我，寧可錯過一份感情，寧可放棄。寧可不要，也不會冒可能會被傷害的危險，因為太不值得，因為獅子座的人太愛自己了。。。

獅子座的人喜歡熱鬧，但是也很享受孤獨，他可以把這兩者之間搞得很平衡，他很喜歡跟朋友一起，瘋狂的玩鬧，成為一個party的主角，但是回到家裡，他立馬就可以變得異常安靜，不喜歡被打擾，他需要自己的空間來思考，如果不給獅子這個空間，對他步步緊逼，那麼他一定會抓狂，變得不可理喻，他還會離開你，因為在獅子的字典裡，"自由"和"自我"這兩詞的比重幾乎佔據了全部。

還有，獅子座的人很喜歡新鮮的，華麗的，有質感的，昂貴的，有品位的東西，他也喜歡樸實，但是卻不喜歡無聊和無趣，他害怕一成不變的枯燥，他害怕今天就能預見明天的可能性，他喜歡為止的新鮮有趣的事物，如果你恰好具備了這一點，那麼你和獅子座的人很配合。

獅子座的人有兩種不同的傾向，一種是很喜歡天然的東西，不喜歡過多的修飾；另一類是很喜歡奢華另類奇特的事物，更多是獅子座是兩者兼有，我屬於這一種，我討厭過度無謂的修飾，但是欣賞另類特別和高雅的事物，對於愛人的選擇上，可能也會結合這個標準。

獅子座的人很寬容，通常不會因為小事而斤斤計較，他們喜歡展現自己與眾不同的仁慈心和獲得尊重。對於過往的愛人，獅子座的人很少去探討是誰的功過是非，無論當時對方有多傷害自己，但是過去了就過去了，獅子座的人不會去詛咒或者怨恨，因為他們喜歡向前看，他們不喜歡做八婆和有損自己高貴形象的事情。獅子座的人相信，只要自己完美和努力，幸福就在前方，更美好的一定在等待著我們！！
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魔羯座

年輕的魔羯都是很單純的，我想他們也不會知道自己將從天使變成惡魔。

魔羯座的人天生善良，感情也都很脆弱，也許會因為一些很小的事情難過很長時間，所以他們通常在表面表現的酷酷的與事隔離的樣子，其實他們只是不希望讓別人看到他脆弱的一面，堅強，理智，承受是魔羯的代名詞，他們並不是很隨便的表達自己所想，他們希望瞭解身邊所有人的性格，並不是因為好奇，好像只是因為一種安全感，為了保護自己魔羯生出了一種特殊能力。
　　
魔羯相對任何星座來比能在最段時間看出一個人的性格無論他們在如何隱藏，這點很像天蠍但是他們卻看不出對方的心，他們很容易就會瞭解到他們身邊每一個人的優缺點，但是他們通常不會說出來，也不會太介意，所有的魔羯都很包容對方請記得，如果有一隻魔羯指出你的缺點那一定是友善的，雖然他們會用一種諷刺的口氣來指出．
　　
所有魔羯都擁有２個性格，只是大部分魔羯都不願意去接受，因為他們希望自己永遠的傻傻的活下去，魔羯的壞可以媲美過所有星座，也許他們不相信，但是隨著時間的積累魔羯的人在慢慢變壞，其實這也是一種自我保護，他們需要知道瞭解自己最後的一張王牌，做不做就看對方是否達到讓魔羯抱負的地步了，這並不是在表揚，似乎用陰險可以形容，當魔羯討厭一個人的時候那就是一種絕對，魔羯不會隨便討厭一個人，但是如果哪個人做的太過分，這個人會從魔羯心底徹底抹殺，如果這個人激怒了魔羯，呵呵那麼這個人就只能等著災難的降臨。
　　
魔羯是個比較城府的人，他們不會表面去得罪了，但是他們會計劃著讓這個人知道他所做的事情將會給自己帶來多大的回報，魔羯的報復手段極其殘忍，他會加倍的還給你，（如果你有一天遭受到摸名的災難那麼你去想想你在什麼時候得罪了魔羯）魔羯並不會隨便的去加害一個人，因為魔羯也討厭自己的壞，他們是天才的殺手，一切的一切從很早以前就做好計劃，而且這些計劃在沒有事件出現前他們就在考慮如何完美並無破綻的進行報復計劃，也許這些和他的悲觀有些聯繫，魔羯的人很瞭解世界，但他們固執的相信美好儘管自己知道那是不可能的，大部分魔羯都討厭壞壞的自己，當然想拋棄自己是不可能的。
　　
朋友（最喜歡裝傻的星座）
魔羯的人都很沒有安全感，他們喜歡在任何人面前裝傻，這可不是一般的裝傻能力，魔羯人聰明就在於這點，他們認為只有傻子在會不牽扯到任何傷害，與其做一個聰明的人不如當一個傻子平凡而又隨意，如果不是值得魔羯相信的朋友魔羯永遠不會讓對方知道自己會有智慧，而無論安全與不安全魔羯對朋友都很真，他們很珍惜些朋友。

他們最希望獲得朋友的信任，如果從一個朋友那裡得不到信任，他不會再與這個朋友交往下去．和魔羯接觸過的人都會認為他們脾氣很好，好的似乎發傻，其實他們並不是脾氣好，只是他們很會裝，因為他們瞭解身邊的朋友的所有性格，所以他們在包容對方，就算你做了什麼過分的事，他們也早就想考慮好如果對方為什麼會這樣做，最明顯一點，你們可以去看看身邊魔羯的朋友，無論你怎麼做那些魔羯都不會很驚訝的，其實他們已經知道你為什麼會這樣了．魔羯的交友觀也很隨便，他們可能會和貴族很好，也可能會和乞丐聊天，一切的一切只是心靈的交往，很少有魔羯會有勢力眼，除非你這個人品太差了。
　　
感情（超級白癡）
魔羯的人傻的可以，他們並不瞭解愛情，但是他們只知道愛的感覺，對於他們任何感情的表達都是一種感覺，他們很認真的感受每一個感覺，大部分感覺都可以一個人去感覺，最失敗的愛卻要兩個人，傻傻的魔羯一開始會認為，愛你是我自己的事情和你沒關係，可是到後來越來越感覺不是滋味，於是開始對對方表白，表白成功後卻不知道如何走下一步，也許是太不浪漫在作祟，魔羯的人可能會拿任何事情開玩笑，但是在愛情方面只要他說出"我愛你"或者話題談到將來結婚，那麼他絕對不是在開玩笑，魔羯很物質，但是這點和金牛處女不一樣，他們的物質表現在愛上，他們認為給所愛的人帶來無限的物質的就是最大的幸福，因為他們很自卑，唯一能用自己努力獲得來的就只有物質了。

當自己努力的去讓自己所愛的人幸福的時候，自己所愛的人卻因為其他的其他離開了他，而到最後自己卻不明白自己到底做錯了什麼，真是可憐的傢伙們．

追求: 魔羯的追求是認真的，只要對方不讓魔羯認為完全沒有機會，魔羯就會像瘋子一樣的追求著，他們其實對自己非常沒有信心，唯一的動力只是相信自己在愛著，為了對的起自己的感情，為了認真的去愛一回．
　　
被追求:　魔羯對於不喜歡的人不會給予任何機會，魔羯的人很善良，而且他們知道長痛不如短痛的道理，如果魔羯勉強接受了你，那也是出於一種同情心，但是交往沒幾天他們就開始內疚，他們認為憐憫的愛對追求者來說是一種傷害，他們會盡量的躲避並且對追求者很冷淡追求者盡量的讓追求者開始討厭她／他．如果追求者不理解的話，放心最長不超過一年，魔羯會很理智的告訴你別在聯繫了，她／他會消失的無影無縱．
　　
拒絕:　如果魔羯真的愛了就不會去拒絕你，永遠不會．
　　
被拒絕:　魔羯比任何一個星座對感情都很認真，恢復傷痕的時間也很長，他們會選擇消失，這樣對你對他都有好處，因為他怕多看你一眼而又再次無法自拔　他怕再多看你一眼　心如刀割
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雙子

有很多的朋友，可是"看起來朋友很多，可是知心的沒有幾個"

雙子很能說話，他跟別人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也會聊一些很嚴肅的話題。雙子可以跟你聊很多東西，可是注意了，他都只是跟你聊一些不關自己的事。隨便他跟你說些什麼，可是跟自己有關的都只是些皮毛而已。比如，今天又有某個明星怎樣怎樣了；隔壁班有多少美女帥哥的。關於自己的事，他幾乎是不說的，就算是說，也是說一些關於自己無關痛癢的事。當你想更進一步的瞭解雙子，他會很自然的把話題給扯開。

對於自信的雙子來說，他又同時很沒有安全感，這是雙子特有的矛盾。他喜歡把自己重重包圍住，不讓自己暴露。對於雙子來說，如果在一個還不瞭解的人面前把自己暴露了，就等於讓別人抓住了自己的把柄。這樣就失去了一定的優勢。當雙子感到獨孤悲傷時，只會一個人躲在房間裡哭，或者一個人鬱悶著。

雙子也很怕被傷害，很多時候寧願自己承受一切，也不願別人抓住自己的把柄。所以久而久之也就養成了習慣。雙子基本上也是個很痛苦的人。表面上總是很有活力，很快樂的樣子，可是沒人的時候他又總是很憂傷。雙子總會被一種莫名的悲傷籠罩。但他不會讓別人發現的，他怕被傷害，也怕被別人拋棄，只能自己硬挺著一切。所以雙子很神經質，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，因為承受了太多的東西.
一般來說雙子的孩子都很早熟。雙子對很多的東西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起來什麼都不在乎。雙子並不是故意要掩飾自己，上面說了，這只是一種習慣了，可是在外人看來他就成了虛偽的人。

雙子是被公認的最花心、最冷酷無情的星座。其實對於雙子的花心，真的不想再說些什麼了。解釋得太多，累了，也沒耐心了。可是說起雙子，就不得不提感情，雙子這一生，似乎必須被感情牽伴，跟愛情糾纏一世。很多人說雙子並不花心，只是博愛，所以才會有那麼好的人緣。忘了在哪裡看見了這樣的一句話：雙子最大的悲哀在於有兩個人的思想，卻只有一個人的身體，雙子有愛自己所愛的人的權利，也有保護彼此所愛的人的義務，雙子只剩下一個時，愛也就只剩下義務了。
我想用如來若去說的一句話給雙子的花心做個總結：花心的極端就是癡心的可怕。該懂的人應該會懂的。至於冷酷無情真的不知道該從何說起。其實雙子是最平和的星座，如果可以不發生衝突，都會盡量避免。雙子也很少跟別人吵架，他討厭吵架，如果是因為一些生活瑣碎小事吵架，那麼雙子就在吵完的那一刻就把這件事給忘了；

要雙子真的跟你翻臉，除非是你的所作所為或所說的話實在讓雙子不能忍受，這時他會很鄙視得看你一眼，然後頭也不回地走掉，甚至會不給你留面子地離開。這時你一輩子也別想再和他和好了，就算有的雙子礙於面子和你再成為朋友，但是他們已經對你鄙視到了極點，只不過維持著這一層不得不維持的"朋友"關係其實，很大一部分雙子，對待感情是非常專一的，之所以給人留下花心的美名，是因為很少有人能夠讓略帶童心的雙子動真感情，不是雙子鐵石心腸，而是雙子個性裡面天生有一些憂鬱，一些潛在的不自信，只是雙子隱藏的深入，可是一旦讓雙子動了真感情，那麼恭喜你了，雙子的天真，率直，外加表達能力豐富，一定能讓你獲得很多快樂。

每個雙子都有一個故事隱藏在心裡，多數是不堪回首的往事，雙子是個念舊或者說是喜歡沉浸在回憶中的星座，他（她）的這個故事通常都是因情所困，動了感情而被傷害了的雙子是脆弱的，也是堅強的，他（她）可以很快的振作起來，可以當什麼事都沒有發生，這些都是雙子演給世人看的罷了，等到夜深人靜的時候，雙子內心的傷痛隨著血液滲透到全身，他（她）可以一整夜的去回憶之前的點點滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那裡發呆，但是，一旦天亮了，要出去見人了，雙子馬上就從痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一個神采奕奕的雙子，這就是雙子，擁有雙重性格的雙子，一個在世人面前樂天，快樂，在孤獨夜晚獨自傷悲的雙子。

雙子的愛是最永恆的，可以付出一切，有人說我們花心，那時我們沒有真正的愛，當雙子愛上一個人的時候是痛苦的，因為我們太敏感。假如雙子愛上了一個不愛自己的人，那莫我相信他永遠都不會再愛了，當愛給過了一個人，他再也沒有能力再付出了，其實太多的人都不懂我們，其實連我們自己都不懂自己，我們很會偽裝，很會說謊，但我們最細膩，對感情最敏感，雙子的愛與悲傷，誰又真的瞭解！
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天平座

優雅的天平在燈紅酒綠中微笑轉身，顧盼神采，灑脫如同水中的魚。

他們與紅酒，水晶杯，晚禮服，鋼琴曲是那麼的相得益彰，漫不經意的吸引著公眾的眼光……
幾乎所有人都有這樣一種印象：
天平座的人善意、可親，愛交朋友。於是大家也由此認為天平是群居生物，必然是害怕獨處，喜歡熱鬧的。

但，事實並不是表面看來那樣簡單。的確，天平是個和平使者。在公眾場合可以很好地調節氣氛使之均衡。氣氛熱烈時，他們會沉靜的壓住陣腳；氣氛冷凝時，他們會運用不著痕跡的輕鬆幽默化解堅冰。總之他們不會隨波逐流去助長氣氛的冷熱，而是像用天平稱量物品一樣，加減砝碼，使之維持水平狀態。

而他們在做這種加減的時候，動作是優雅的，態度是和悅的，看起來漫不經心不動聲色。實際上，他們是很有心計的人，儘管眾口難調，也可以找到一種萬全的方式來使全局和諧起來。
但是這並不是說他們喜歡主宰，只是因為他們看不得失衡，那會使他們如坐針氈。
因此，儘管慵懶的天平座討厭麻煩，討厭得要命，他們還是會不由自主地擔負起調節的責任。也許正因如此，使得天平在公眾場合從未放鬆過自己。性格使他們承擔了不必要的責任，無可推卸。

他們不吝惜金錢，卻吝惜自由的時間和安靜的休閒時光。像所有風向星座一樣，他們喜歡自由，喜歡像風一樣誰也捉不住他。
他們喜歡自在獨立的空間。就算你是他最好的朋友，也不要老和他粘在一起，你要知道他並不喜歡如此，儘管他不會直接說出來。你也得相信，你的天平座朋友也許半年也沒有音信，但是只要一見面，你還是他最好的朋友。因為他就是這種交友方式，你拿他怎麼辦？
"我懶得……"

這是天平座的口頭語。他們懶得出門，懶得聚會，懶得應酬……所以他們並不是很喜歡參加party。倒是寧願呆在家裡上網，看書，畫畫。他們自身是均衡的，一個人的均衡總比一群人的均衡來的容易。所以他們喜歡獨處。
通常，天平座的人會給人一見如故的感覺，因為他們有著溫婉的微笑和優雅的舉止。對初次見面的人，天平座往往表現出自己最討人喜歡的一面：善解人意，大方，誠懇，健談。但是這種熱情勁兒不會長久。

冷漠何時到來取決於你與他交往的頻率。你越是粘得緊，他就冷得越快。因為他們喜歡"君子之交清淡如水"。不是他們不喜歡同伴，而是他們和人交往更多地關注了對方的情緒，總想著照顧對方心情，不要發生衝突，所以感覺像是在工作一樣，無法真正的放鬆。
較之對宮白羊座，天平是另一種獨立的個體。白羊是一種外在的獨立，內心是熱的；天平則是表面看似親和力很強，內心卻是任誰也無法融入的。天平的冷靜，連他們自己也覺得驚訝。"我居然如此冷漠！太不可思議了……"他們審視自己的時候，感覺有點陌生。那是因為他們把內心世界掩飾得連自己都騙過了。

他們控制情緒的能力太強了。最親近的人會感覺到，天平給人不露聲色的隔離感，有時會被埋怨"太冷靜了，我都不知道你在想什麼！" 可是他們不是故意要隱瞞什麼，只是出於本能。一個連自己都騙過了的人，你還能要求他對你坦白什麼？他們不喜歡歇斯底里，不喜歡痛哭失聲，不喜歡安慰別人也不怎麼喜歡被安慰。因為他們懂得，誰也無法真正理解另一個人。

天平，其實是很獨立的一個星座。他們在霓虹燈影裡微笑，在燈火闌珊處寂寞。他們叫你懂得：孤獨的最高境界是繁華。
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雙魚座

看過很多關於雙魚的各種傳說

看過很多關於雙魚的各種傳說，分析，解釋。似乎無一例外的把雙魚當作了一個女人的星座，動不動就是流眼淚，唉聲歎氣。可惜可歎，如果雙魚真的只是這樣的一個星座，那麼可以說沒有一個人願意去做雙魚，而歷史上也不會有什麼著名的雙魚人物了。

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最本質的部分：思考
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雙魚座的最本質特點是什麼？善良？懦弱？溫柔？不是，我告訴你，是思考（在很多情況下，是過多的思考）。

是的，雙魚座的一切特性，都來自於他過多的思考，或許世上沒有第二個星座比雙魚座更能洞察別人的心理，更能分析事情的本質。

你可以稱之為敏感，但是一旦這種敏感能夠正確的使用，那麼沒有人能比雙魚座更快的學會人情事故，在這一方面，有一個雙魚座的偉人做的尤其出色，他的名字是周恩來。
　　
因為思考的太多，所以雙魚座的人就算不是真正善良的，也至少是表面善良的。對於雙魚來說，善良與其說是本質，不如說是雙魚喜歡的一種生活方式，以善良的方式活著，是輕鬆而又受人尊敬的，一般的雙魚座很早就能洞察到這一點。
　　
再談談溫柔，這一點，不管是哪篇文章，都不會忘了提雙魚座的溫柔。是的，雙魚的確是溫柔的。因為雙魚總能敏感的體會到對方的細微變化，時刻瞭解到對方心意的轉變，表現在行動上，就是能盡快的知道，什麼時候應該為女孩披上自己的外衣，什麼時候應該停下手裡的活，轉過身去和女友好好的說話。
　　
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與眾不同的部分：信仰
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雙魚的信仰就是沒有信仰! 在雙魚的世界裡面，沒有絕對的對和錯，如果發生了一件事，他第一件做的事情是去理解這件事，去分析這件事，而不是去判斷這件事是對的還是錯的。

下面引用一段話說明雙魚的這個特點：
"魚座男人沒有偏見，沒有親自穿著鹿皮走幾哩路，他不會評斷印地安人；沒有試試赤腳走路，他也不會評斷裸體主義者。甚至這些做了，他還是會滿心諒解而不會過於批評。他很少冷酷的指控，倒是每每溫暖的忍耐，他甚至會試試瞭解他的岳母，天底下有幾個男人能這樣？海王子擁有罕見的同情精神，他的朋友向他吐露秘密而從不擔憂會把他嚇著，要嚇到魚起碼需要兩噸以上的炸彈。如果你和我以及你的魚兒三人同坐一室，一個男人走進來告訴我們他有些擔憂，因為他重婚，在四個州各有一個老婆，你可能眼睛瞪得大大瞧他，冒著火，心想監獄是最適合他的地方，我可能鄙夷的說他是個卑鄙的流氓，但你的魚兒很可能問："那四州？你愛不愛她們其中任何一個？"魚很好奇，但防震。對他來說，這個傢伙需要一缸子同情以及好得要命的律師。"
　　
有一位偉人利用了這點特性，結果成就了科學史上的神話，他就是愛因斯坦。
　　
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雙魚的致命缺點：懦弱
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現實中的雙魚座確實給人太多的失望，懦弱，多疑，自卑，優柔寡斷，沒有主見.....一個雙魚座或許沒有上面全部的特點，但至少會有一，二個。就算是偉大如周恩來，有時候難免有些優柔寡斷和沒有主見，當然，這種時候不多。
　　
造成雙魚座優柔寡斷的原因很簡單。因為同樣一個選擇，在一個射手看來，只需要考慮2樣東西，但是在雙魚看來，卻需要考慮10樣東西，因為他想的實在是太多了。簡單的說一句話，雙魚都會想到它會給周圍的人帶來多少種不同的影響，它會讓人對自己有怎麼樣的看法，會不會造成誤解。（雖然很多時候，雙魚會衝動的把一些話脫口而出）
　　
至於多疑，這點和自卑聯繫的比較緊密。雖然雙魚座能輕易的瞭解對方的意圖，看透事情的真相，但是卻往往不能堅持住自己的觀點，這種不能堅持大多數是因為雙魚座自己不願接受這個事實，也有很多時候是因為雙魚對自己不夠自信。關於前一點，比較突出的一個例子是，雙魚座的女孩不到男孩子直截了當的告訴她，他不愛她了，女孩就總是還抱有一線希望，雖然女孩心裡明白的很。懦弱呢？關於這點，和信仰聯繫在一起。你一定覺得很奇怪，懦弱和信仰又有什麼關係呢？

信仰是種很可怕的力量，他可以讓一個人做出平時不敢做的事情，擁有不該擁有的勇氣，犧牲不該犧牲的東西。而雙魚恰恰是沒有一丁點信仰的，就算有，也不過是為了給生活加一點調味劑，或是給自己找一個避難所。對於雙魚來說，自己能過舒適，安穩的日子，比什麼都重要。富貴如浮雲，最想的開這點的就是雙魚座了。至於愛國什麼的，酒飽飯足的雙魚可以慷慨激昂，也會不惜重金施於，但是只是建立在自己有好日子過的前提下。

接下來，可以解釋下雙魚的懦弱了。只要能讓自己和愛人平平安安，有什麼不可以忍受的呢？什麼尊嚴，什麼氣節，見鬼去吧。所以只要不把雙魚逼到絕境，你盡可以嘲弄雙魚的懦弱。每條魚的忍受範圍都不同，但一般都比正常人多那麼一點點。但是如果你不小心讓一條魚覺得無路可走了，那麼你真的要小心了。魚可以踐踏人間一切法律，無視所有道理，更不會考慮自己的尊嚴和人格。你務必要相信這一點，雖然這種時候很少，但那只不過是因為上帝不想讓人們經常看到地獄的慘狀。

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雙魚的最大優點：感情
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與其說雙魚是個為愛情而活的星座，不如說雙魚是個為感情而活的星座。對於雙魚來說，世界上最重要的東西是感情，一條精神上滿足的魚，可以沒有其他東西，就已經是最幸福的人（當然，絕大多數情況下，沒有其他東西，很難精神上滿足）。

任何感情對於雙魚來說都是重要的，愛情很重要，但不見得會比親情更重要，在雙魚的眼中。
　　
對於魚來說，感情是單純的，是單獨的。魚可以原諒對方的一切，只要那個人是真心對他好的。你可以十惡不赦，可以吃喝嫖賭，可以之前是人盡可夫的妓女，可以是個卑鄙無恥的騙子，都可以原諒，只要魚能確定你是真心的喜歡他，對他好。但是請注意一點，大部分的魚都比你聰明，不要以為你的小伎倆可以騙到魚，你是不是真心喜歡他，他比誰都清楚。
　　
對於一個男孩子來說，雙魚女孩能給你對於一個女孩子想要的一切，溫柔，愛你不顧一切，可愛（很多時候是裝的，魚大多數是很聰明的），體貼.....

對於一個女孩子來說，雙魚男孩....嗯..... 看你的運氣了，如果你遇到的魚是個沒有志氣，不想做事，玩玩樂樂的魚，而且他已經25歲左右了，那麼好心的提醒你，還是盡早離開他吧。除非你是個富婆，或者你只是找個情人（沒有人比雙魚更適合做情人了：安全快樂而無副作用）。否則，你會經歷世間最淒涼的婚姻和生活，阿門................
　　
那麼如果你遇到的魚是有事業心，能上進，肯做事的魚，或者乾脆就是事業有成的魚，那麼真的是恭喜你，你是千萬少女中最幸運的一個，再挑剔的女人也無法對一個有上進心有事業的魚有更多的要求了。你可以得到世界上一切的溫柔和快樂，包括用錢買的到的和用錢買不到的，魚很樂意把他的一切奉獻給他愛的人，看到他愛的人開心，他會更開心。大部分的魚的"一切"僅僅只有感情，而沒有物質，但是我們現在討論的是最優秀的那種魚，那種能隨時把名望和財富送給你的魚，現在你知道你有多幸運了吧。

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提到感情不得不提的：公平
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很奇怪嗎？公平對於雙魚來說，是個很重要的單詞。雙魚沒有普遍意義上的價值觀，是非觀，你不能用這件事這樣做是對的，那樣做是錯的來說服一個雙魚座。永遠記住，魚的世界裡很少有對錯。那麼魚又是怎麼來處理他和別人（尤其是愛人的關係）呢？就是公平。
　　
如果魚曾經有過十幾，二十個女朋友，那麼他就不會在意你以前有過多少個男朋友，如果魚一個不小心跑出去玩了一夜情，那麼你一夜情的時候，他也會選擇無所謂
好吧，就算你的魚純情的一塌糊塗，你是他（她）的第一次，他也可以原諒你的曾經花心，一時花心，可能會的花心，只要你能用足夠的關心和真心的喜歡彌補。魚大致兌換了下你的關心（兌換比例只有天知道了，呵呵），如果覺得雙方大致公平的（相對於他對於你的感情付出），那麼他就無所謂，就會原諒你。
　　
所以和魚相處是件很簡單的事情，只要你能保證你給他的和他為你付出的差不多多，就可以了。至於倫理道德嘛...嗯，講真的，魚從來不是教條主義者。
　　
反過來，如果你讓魚覺得你對他的關心不夠多，對他的愛不夠多（不夠多是指沒有他給你的多），那麼魚會在痛苦之後，也相應的減少對你的關心和愛，不要懷疑，這方面，魚比誰都表現的現實和斤斤計較。

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感情中的完美主義
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魚在意的東西很少，所以很不幸，魚對於他在意的東西就是完美主義者的態度。
　　
對於魚來說，完美的情人不是忠貞不二的情人，不是事業愛情兼顧的情人，也不是外形完美的情人。魚要求的是"完美的愛"。
　　
你可以不經常說我愛你，但是你說的時候，一定要是真心實意。你可以很少陪他逛街，但是你陪的時候，一定要是真的開開心心。

你也可以對他說很少的情話，但是你要保證，你對別人說的情話更少，而且你對他說的是真心的話。
　　
對於魚來說，欺騙和做作是最不可原諒的。很多人以為簡簡單單的對魚說幾句我愛你，固定性的發些短信問候魚，經常為魚買些好東西就能讓魚覺得被愛了。真不幸，大部分魚都聰明過了頭，一般都能輕鬆辨別那些舉動是真心的，那些不過是手段（如果你曾經用這些手段征服過雙魚女生，也別得意，只不過是雙魚女生比男生更難以拒絕別人而已）。
　　
所以，請誠實一點對待魚，愛他多少就給他多少，他也會給你同樣多。這至少比他生你的氣好的多，不是嗎？
　　
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雙魚真的浪漫嗎？
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所有的星座解釋都會說雙魚是浪漫的，但是所有和雙魚（特別是雙魚男生，一般浪漫都是指男生做的事情）接觸過的人，都往往感覺不到雙魚的浪漫，到底是為什麼呢？難道雙魚並不浪漫？
　　
我給你個肯定的答案，雙魚絕對浪漫，他腦子裡面的浪漫點子不僅包含了所有好萊塢大片的經典場景，還有更多他自己的原創鏡頭，他時不時的都在幻想浪漫的場面，一個魚可能在他18的時候就開始想他30歲結婚的佈置。
　　
那麼為什麼現實中是兩樣呢？因為2點，自卑和善良。前一點很好理解，大部分的浪漫需要自信。很多時候，不是魚不想浪漫，而是不好意思和沒膽子那麼做，你能理解是吧，呵呵。

那麼自信的魚呢？為什麼他也不浪漫？因為他沒有遇到合適的人，因為他善良。
　　
雙魚的愛情大部分是有些被動的。魚總是輕易的喜歡上一個女孩子（注意，我用的單詞是喜歡），然後開始和這個女孩開始交往，然後十有八九，會發現這個女孩不是能給自己完美的愛的女孩（這是肯定的，遇到最合適自己的人哪有那麼容易），魚很現實的知道，他和這個女孩不可能有將來的，2個人能擁有只能是一段回憶。那麼對魚來說，絕大部分的情話都會說不出口，因為魚自己知道這些話都是騙人的，很多浪漫的舉動做不出來，因為魚不敢讓女孩陷的太深，怕分手的那一天女孩太傷心。

很多人說處女，金牛的人想的多，其實魚想的並不比他們少，只不過猶猶豫豫又捨不得的魚，就算明瞭的知道和女孩沒有將來，也不會點破，只會靜靜的維持，享受擁有的每一天。但是這樣的情況下，魚的善良就讓魚忍住了很多浪漫的情話和行動。
　　
我這麼說是不是顯的魚很高尚？呵呵，沒有什麼真正高尚的人。魚能如此的為女孩著想，是因為這麼做能讓魚覺得自己很偉大，有一種悲劇式的美感，魚願意讓自己沉浸在這種自我的意淫中。
　　
當然，這樣至少比不顧別人的死活，只圖自己開心要好的多是不是？所以還是應該為魚們鼓鼓掌的。所以，如果有一天，你看到一條浪漫無比的魚，不要懷疑，他已經認定你們有個美好的未來，他已經知道他不會給你太多的傷心了，那你還猶豫什麼？上去擁抱你的幸福吧。

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結語：什麼樣是好的雙魚？
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雙魚有很多缺點，但是大多數都可以原諒。除了2條，懶惰和猶豫。而雙魚要成為一條好魚，所需要的東西很簡單，事業。
　　
其實不用去提醒魚們其他的事情了，他們自己都能想明白。只需能保證魚能穩步進行他們的事業就可以了。
　　
一旦魚用心去賺錢了，那麼他肯定能賺到錢。但是這一點很難，真的很難，如果有一天，你看到一條生龍活虎的魚，千萬不要放過，好好的捆住他，很有可能，他會帶給你所有的夢想。
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金牛座

幽默是金牛的天賦

與一般星座書上描寫的金牛們相反，其實金牛座非常具有幽默感。他們天生就有搞笑的才能，善於製造輕鬆的氛圍，不要再將牛牛們認為成是一群僵硬腐化的人，相反他們很可愛。還記得在《滿城盡帶黃金甲》的發佈會場上不斷耍寶的金牛發哥嗎？他的幽默感絕對令資深娛記也大跌眼鏡，人緣好不是隨便說說的，金牛座有著寬厚的胸懷。其實他們有著叛逆的靈魂

金牛基本上看起來都是乖孩子，彷彿腳踏實地，固執老實，但是，誰曾想到，其實他們的內心都有著一個小邪魔在作祟？他們雖然是一板一眼的生活，但是在他們的內心裡卻喜歡著調皮的惡作劇。不要金牛們想像的太沉悶，他們其實內心五彩斑斕，而且特別鍾意製造出各種人生的小小樂趣。也正是這樣叛逆的靈魂，讓有些金牛讓人吃驚。所以，一般的容貌姣好的乖乖女，或者一般人理想中的文靜男，其實，都不屬於金牛的鑒賞範圍，他們總會奇異的喜歡些標新立異的人。這點在金牛男上表現的較為突出，也因此而衍生出不少瓶女和牛男的佳話吧。

思考是金牛的具象
在貪圖享樂的外表下，金牛有一顆哲學家的心。他們看問題的方法與眾不同，他們有著唯物主義的思考邏輯，不會輕易人云亦云，也正因為如此，他們讓人覺得固執非常。

但是千萬不要因為固執就否認金牛們的智慧，有馬克思，列寧，康德……為證，金牛們完整的理性思維往往能建立嚴密體系，只是有時候他們太容易鑽牛角尖！不過即使是鑽牛角尖的牛牛也具有鮮明的個人特質，李敖就是這類金牛的代表：）

務實的人生不需要浪漫武裝
跟牛牛生活是一件比較乏味的事情，如果你鍾愛浪漫的儀式。

因為牛牛無論金錢或者生活，他們都踏著務實的步伐。他們不會輕易說我愛你，他們不會隨便送花，他們甚至不記得你的生日，更別提情人節等什麼形而上的各種紀念日，這讓人大為光火。因為沒有了形式的愛情，又怎麼能證明是愛情呢？

但是，金牛們會告訴你，其實有時候真正的幫助其實好過鮮花香水，有時候挺身而出的擔當其實勝過所有的甜言蜜語。所以金牛們的愛情，也許讓人悶到感覺不出火花，但是，在貧乏的愛的表象下，卻藏著他們深刻的滴水不漏而且日久彌堅的關懷。

享樂人生的信仰

金牛們懂得生活。他們雖然很執著，但是該放棄的時候，他們並沒有太多猶豫。從利益出發考量的方式，讓他們在現實生活中相當的如魚得水，而懂得平衡自己的貪念，而追求物質的享受和一心的寧靜，是金牛座中的極品。這樣的金牛能夠在逆境中坦然，在順境中懂得順應。他們有著預見性的智慧，使人生得到完整的規劃。在適當的時候尋求閒適，所以金牛座很少有面臨困境無法自拔的困獸，他們相當的懂得自我調節和生活。他們有著自己的節奏。

能夠輕鬆生活的智者
金牛們在星座排行中表現一般，但是其實他們都很出色，金牛座的孩子往往是班幹部，金牛座的爸爸媽媽都是模範爸媽，他們在生活中盡職盡責，富有責任感，雖然有時候稍嫌古板，但是正是他們撐起了所謂規矩的框架。

嚴肅生活認真思考卻有能享有生活樂趣的金牛們其實非常可愛，當然，如果他們不那麼市儈，那就更好了！
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射手座

樂觀與憂愁

樂觀與憂愁：射手座人的內心不是外表看上去那麼樂觀的，因為喜歡看的遠，容易擔憂的事情也就多，在他們的字典裡，即使現在好，也不一定代表未來好，有時候很多人覺得很好的一個工作或一個伴侶，他們很輕易的就會放棄掉，可能只是因為一個毫不起眼的小原因。所以，這樣的外在表現，就讓人們覺得他們不喜歡被某件事情或某個人束縛住，追求自由的，沒有壓力的感覺。

現實：常說射手座是追求夢想的人，但往往忽略了他們現實的一面，算計起來不會比處女座差哦，只是更高明更隱藏罷了。射手座人的夢想是必須建立在現實的基礎上的，一般他們很少談及自己的夢想，而是實際的去做一些向夢想靠攏的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，決不會多花一點工夫。所以有時候射手座也容易給人耍小聰明的感覺。可是，不得不承認他們完成的還滿不錯。也許終其一生，他們都在考慮怎麼巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去達到最好的效果。所以，很多射手座看上去讓人們會覺得很懶，但是其實他們的大腦可沒有停下過思考現實的事情。

拒絕低俗：幾乎所有的射手座內心都是驕傲的，其程度絕不亞於獅子座。只不過他們不會顯現在臉上，外在的表現總是隨和的，恰當的。可是內在有著極強的自尊心，敏感也情緒化。因為射手座人心中是驕傲的，所以他們拒絕低俗，不喜歡任何俗氣的、粗魯的事或人。如果可以，他們希望一切有關的事物，都是優雅的、高尚的，值得品味的。而真正能讓他們覺得值得交朋友或談戀愛的人是很少的，雖然表面上他們是很隨和的。

多情：很多人說射手座多情，尤其是男性。其實在射手座人的心目中，對於愛情確實有理想化的傾向，和他們談戀愛，是一件高難度的事情。他們非常討厭俗氣的人，所以你不能很物質或喜歡談錢，但是他們又很現實，所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必須有一定的實力。物質與精神，你必須平衡的剛剛好，才讓他們覺得你值得去愛。或者，你有足夠的神秘感，可以讓他們不知道你的缺點在哪裡，而盲目的愛你。一般，當然是沒有完美無缺的人的，所以，可能像金牛座這樣永遠會讓射手感覺捉摸不透的悶悶的人，會非常吸引他們；或者象雙子那樣，足夠機智，懂得察言觀色，捕捉他們的情緒，才會讓他們感覺到愛情的甜蜜。

一般射手的感情模式是，第一階段，你們還不熟悉，他（她）愛上了你，非常熱情。第二階段，你們逐漸熟悉，而他（她）開始龜毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，無論是背地裡還是當面。如果你有幸通過他（她）的挑剔過程，基本挑剔出的毛病為零或者你把缺點保密的非常好；那麼進入第三階段，他們就又是忠誠和熱情的愛人了。但是基本能通過第二階段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一說。其實射手對戀人的挑剔，是源於對愛情的挑剔，對喪失自由感的恐懼。

射手座人的人生，往往是幸運的，因為他們是聰慧的、明朗的、通透的。與眾不同，也許是他們終生追求的夢想，希望每一個射手人，可以找到他們的夢想！

人人都說射手座是感情的騙子，對愛情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心與沖滿慾望的象徵。朋友們…你們瞭解射手座最真實的一面嗎？

射手座是大孩子，天真與善良，遇到愛情時，可能讓人感覺不認真，付出的比誰都少。可是，知道嗎？射手座很想愛，卻也很怕愛！剛開始他們只是慢慢的付出，謹慎的愛，好怕自己會受傷。可是在一句一句的愛，一天一天的相處下，射手座把帶刺的防備丟掉，開始不顧一切的去愛他們所愛的人，在別人眼中，只是射手座為了達到某種目的而作的行動。可射手座不介意，他會在自己幸福的想像中陶醉，希望對方能感受自己的愛，想對方覺得與自己一齊是幸福的。
在射手座愛上了一個人，他會把自己放到最後。

有苦自己承擔，可能會因為吵了一場小架而不開心，卻也是最快認錯，無論誰的錯，他們都會包容，知道嗎？射手座會因為深愛一個人而原諒他的背叛，會因為你的一句話付出很多。他們愛玩，在玩的同時，也希望把那一份好心情帶給你，射手座是樂觀的。

人們總覺得射手座的世界很快樂，可是呢？射手座難過時沒有人知道，他不想讓別人可憐自己，射手座不堅強，可是很善良。在你難過時哄你開心，讓你有依靠，分手後，他會哭者去想屬於你們倆幸福的回憶，也不想愛的人因為同情而勉強和他一齊。他比誰都希望自己愛的人快樂幸福，卻常常忽略了自己，全身都是傷也笑著告訴你，我很好不用擔心。

在所有人看到他的笑容以為他沒事，卻不知道失戀對射手座有多大傷害，華麗的外表下有一顆脆弱的需要別人瞭解和安慰的心。知道嘛？你的一點關心，心思細膩的射手座會記得你對他的好，把自己的愛毫無保留的送給你，射手座是不被瞭解的，可他們不會怨誰。他們會傻傻的認為，讓我承擔吧，別讓別人也受到傷害。所以，不要讓快樂的射手座痛苦，別讓他們最有魅力的笑容成為掩飾痛苦的偽裝，認真愛射手座。你會知道射手座的愛，是充滿淚水的…
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白羊座

"白羊嗎？太恐怖了！他們脾氣大、暴力、瞧不起人，還是躲遠些、小心為妙！"

如果你這末認為，那你可能就會失去一個肯為你付出生命的人。受火星的灼燒，白羊決不是人們想像中的那種冷血狂魔！
　　
白羊的內心世界有兩個：恨的世界與愛的世界。白羊的外顯世界與內心世界是同步的，只不過由於他的"恨"意更昭顯，以至於掩蓋了他愛的那一面。
　　
白羊很善良，心中總是想著別人，很多時候願意委屈自己而成全別人，但由於白羊不能掩飾自己的情感，凡事爭鋒，有什末不滿就會立刻表露出來，於是不能將美事做盡，落個徹底的好人，反而最後還招來一鼻子灰！比如，白羊想看愛情連續劇，你想看科教片，於是你們就開始為了看什末而打假。如果你硬看科教片，則白羊會大吵大罵，最後"砰"的把電視給關上！白羊心裡想，電視又不是你一個人的，憑什末只許你看不許我看？！你不讓我看，你也別想看！但如果白羊佔了上風，看上了愛情連續劇，而你默默的走開，則白羊一會兒又會覺得過意不去，心疼你，怕你不高興，於是讓你看。一句話，白羊是重形式不重實質，極度不能容忍別人挑戰他的權威。
　　
其實，白羊是那種死要面子活受罪的人。面子，比白羊的生命還重要！白羊最不能容忍的就是別人貶低他、瞧不起他！誰要是對白羊吼幾嗓子，白羊能吼誰24 個小時。比如，上司若是責備白羊不當，則白羊就會氣勢洶洶的反責備上司，而且責備的更歡。上司責備他一句，他能責備上司10句！！當上司解雇了這個不肖員工以後，白羊不但不傷心，反而還有種壯烈感："雖然丟了工作，但是丟得值！我當著那末多人的面罵了上司一頓，真是露臉！嗯，同事們現在一定還在議論我的英雄事跡……"白羊邊重新找工作邊想，想著想著，自己便不禁暗笑起來，接著便是昂首闊步，得意洋洋，覺得自己真是了不起、不可一世！
　　
白羊愛面子，都愛到了成癖的地步。白羊希望別人喜歡他、愛戴他、吹捧他，最好能對他前呼後擁、關懷備至。白羊男們總是感慨自己為何沒能當上總統，白羊女們則從來都認為自己是總統夫人的料兒，只是不小心找錯了男朋友！白羊總覺得自己是個天才，只是因為懷才不遇才淪落到今天這種無名小卒的地步。比如，白羊認為自己天生就是個藝術家，只是張藝謀導演沒發現他。若是張導發現他，他一定比鞏麗要出色的多！由於白羊喜歡那種高高在上的感覺，所以，只要你平素多吹捧著他、讚美著他，則他便會"累死不知死"的對你，你喜歡他怎樣他就會怎樣。
　　
白羊很溫柔，只要你沒惹著他，你可以隨便與他嬉戲。但如果你要是有什末一不小心的舉動觸犯了他，則最好趕快給自己準備個棺材。比如，白羊與你打情罵俏，很開心的氣氛，雙方都樂在其中。忽然，你一不小心，出手重了些，打痛了白羊，則白羊就會立刻瞪大眼睛、提高嗓門，把你罵個狗血噴頭，甚至再狠狠的還你兩個更重的巴掌。此時，歡樂的氣氛一下陷入了僵局，弄得你心裡彆扭至極。但白羊卻認為，鬧歸鬧，你也總得有個限度吧，出手沒輕沒重，真是討厭，我的漂亮的手都被你打紅了！想著想著，白羊會更生氣，弄不好再轟炸你一次～～～不過，過了10分鐘，白羊又開始和你有說有笑，好像什末事情也沒發生過。白羊凡事都來得快，去得也快，一般不記仇。
　　
你也許會說："白羊不記仇？怎末可能！他們總是抓住別人的錯誤不放！"但是，白羊確實不記仇，他們抓住別人的錯誤不放，實際上是為了時刻提醒對方，不要再犯同樣的錯誤！比如，白羊的愛人有外遇，但經過一番周折，兩個人又和好了。那末，在以後的生活中，白羊會時常責罵愛人當初是怎末的拋棄自己、自己是多末多末的不幸、自己的心靈受到了多大多大的創傷！白羊之所以會這末做，主要有兩個原因：一方面，每當白羊想起這些，就會十分的激火、生氣，於是非罵愛人一頓不可，以解心頭之恨；另一方面，白羊這末做是要時刻提醒愛人，以後不能再有外遇了，變相給愛人敲警鐘！

白羊是那種把自己的快樂建築在別人的痛苦之上的人，因為白羊愛滿處宣揚別人的溴事。比如，他會在大庭廣眾之下，說你們小時候一起玩耍時你不小心尿了褲子，更或者，他會對你的心上人說你有愛挖鼻孔的習慣（偶服了白羊了～～～）。但是，白羊並不覺得說這些有什末不可以，因為在白羊心裡，這些都是那末的美好，是童年的回憶、是人生百態的小花絮。他們說你的溴事，僅僅是因為他們覺得好玩，覺得很甜美，能給人帶來樂趣，把別人的目光都集中到自己身上來，讓別人認為自己是開心果！白羊完全沒有挖苦你、拆你愛情道路的意思，只是結果往往……
　　
白羊天生氣質非凡，人中龍鳳。白羊的人生宗旨是"活出自己"。由於白羊天性中有桀驁的一面，於是在與人相處的時候，就不自覺的流露出一種傲慢的氣息。由於白羊的這種不自覺的擺譜兒，以至於不瞭解白羊的人都躲著白羊，因為他們覺得白羊看不起人。但如果有個機會接觸了白羊，則人們又會認為白羊是那末的好接近、那末的好心腸。白羊自己覺不出自己的傲慢，心中只是暗暗納悶：為什末別人總躲著我，我是多末的平易近人、和藹可親啊！！！
　　
白羊多沒主見，耳朵根兒軟，自己做好壞分析的能力很差。白羊極富正義感，喜歡讓不公正的事情昭雪。但是，由於白羊的沒主見，使得白羊的正義感帶有一廂情願的色彩。比如，白羊認為從一而終是種正義，於是，任何發生婚外情的人都會受到白羊的譴責與蔑視。白羊認為，我一生下來，父母、老師就告訴我要從一而終，難道我堅持從一而終還會有錯誤嗎？！白羊不明白，任何的一樁善也是一樁惡，正義與否遠非能用是否從一而終而簡單定論。這也可從一個側面反映出白羊是個簡單的人，任何複雜的事情到白羊手中都會變得簡單、易行（人生能有這種魄力也實在是一件美事）。
　　
由於白羊沒主見，所以白羊本能的喜歡和能安慰自己的人在一起。白羊心裡存不住東西，遇到什末事情都要對別人說，因為白羊認為，別人能緩解他心中的不愉快，能幫他解脫痛苦。白羊非常需要外界的支持，否則，白羊就會感到非常的無助、焦慮。比如，白羊在公共汽車上遇到了流氓摸他，則他在公交車上就能大吵大罵起來。之後，上至曾祖父母，下至玄孫子女，旁至堂表眾親戚，外至朋友鄰里，他都能將此事一五一十的向他們每一個人敘述一遍。敘述完後，別人一定要響應他、安慰他幾句，否則他又會向你敘述一遍，沒完沒了的嘮叨此事。
　　
白羊對待感情亦是反應神速。若你向白羊示意愛慕之情，則白羊若喜歡你，第二天你們便成了情侶；若白羊不喜歡你，就會躲你遠遠的。你若窮追不捨，他還會一點面子不留的直指責你："躲我遠點，我不喜歡你！否則我打你！"（汗～～～）在白羊心中，喜歡就是喜歡，討厭就是討厭，沒那末多的的曖昧不清。
　　
白羊喜歡那種有驚世駭俗之舉的人，因為白羊覺得只有這種人才配得上自己。比如，你們約會，到了吃飯的時間，你最好帶白羊去釣魚台吃，就算你的錢只夠在釣魚台喝瓶礦泉水，白羊也會因你的這個壯舉而愛死你；你若帶白羊去吃街頭的麻辣燙，那末你就做好被白羊蹬了的準備吧！
　　
白羊的性慾很旺盛，但由於他們很顧及自己的面子，所以總是光想不練。換句話說，就是白羊的意淫很嚴重。比如，在公共汽車上，身邊坐著一個漂亮MM或 GG，於是，白羊就開始對其產生了無盡的有關性的想像……由於白羊的行動力超強，所以做起愛來也是超神速。
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水瓶座

幾乎每個水瓶座的心底都有著一段刻骨銘心人間記憶，一個永遠無法忘記的背影。

那也許只是極其短暫的兩情相悅，只是一種單戀，或只是一種只存在於虛幻空間。
一切看起來是那麼平靜，那麼和諧。
沒有驚天動地，沒有海誓山盟，沒有花前月下，沒有浪漫，沒有誓言，沒有溫度。水瓶座的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永無燃點。

水瓶座不容易喜歡上一個人。有人說水瓶座對伴侶的要求太高，其實並非這樣，水瓶座注重的是感覺。只是那麼輕描淡寫的一眼，那個人已經吸引了水瓶的所有注意力，從此目光便無法轉移。
用一秒鐘愛上一個人，然後再付出一生去忘記，水瓶座就是這樣的試驗品。
但幾乎所有的水瓶都會否認在自己的身上發生一見鍾情，因為一向自視清高，承認愛上一個人這鍾事似乎是在侮辱自己的智商。

更多的時候是因為，連自己都沒發現已經愛上。水瓶座很多時候對於感情反應非常遲鈍，遲鈍到每次都是最後的知情者。有時容易出現弄不清自己的感覺，不清楚自己想做什麼，覺得迷惘。
在對方沒有非常明確地表示感情時會退怯，覺得愛情是兩廂情願，不想勉強對方。
顯得很被動，忽冷忽熱，猶豫不決，極其矛盾。在沒有完全確定前，決不輕易付出感情，因為怕失去。

也許是缺乏安全感，也許是對自己的保護，也可以算作是一種自私。
一般水瓶座的好朋友都是經過很長世間的考察的，不僅僅是幾年，而是十幾年。一旦被水瓶座當作好朋友的，會赴湯蹈火掏心掏肺。在公車上，街邊，商場，水瓶老是認錯人。在茫茫人海中，始終在尋找一個熟悉的身影，直到產生幻覺。

這一刻，水瓶座突然很想痛哭流涕，因為突然發現自己幾近瘋狂的愛上一個人，失去了理智，失去了自我。這種突如其來的感覺，很恐懼，很無助。

水瓶座不喜歡這種感覺，因為不知該如何面對。要讓水瓶座主動去追逐，是件異常困難的事，在
水瓶座的世界裡無法承受拒絕，就是這麼脆弱，無論表面上看來是多麼的堅強。
水瓶座在人前總是一幅無憂無慮沒心沒肝的樣子，不想別人看見自己的悲傷，那樣會有不安全的感覺，總是在無人的地方暗自落淚。

算了，還是放在心裡吧。既不用尷尬的表白然後遭到拒絕，又不會相愛容易相處難的慘烈分手。這樣很好，沒人看出來，不至於太沒面子。可以繼續貌似瀟灑。

但是，不同了。儘管水瓶座裝著多麼不在乎，看都不看一眼。可是對方說的每句話都從耳朵進去，沒見出來。對方提的任何過分的要求，水瓶座統統照單全收精心盡力，決對不會有半個不字。完全成為一個愛情的奴隸，臉上還裝酷無表情，整個死要面子活受罪。

這種情況下，如果對方使點陰謀詭計，刻意疏遠避而不見或是視而不見，電話不接或是哼哈敷衍等等，水瓶會給整瘋了，開始會想是什麼自己地方做錯了，說錯話了，然後拉下面子主動討好試探。不用多，碰壁兩次，水瓶座就會有自知之明了，不會再去想是為什麼會這樣，也不想知道了。心裡會想，原來是對方討厭自己，不想見到自己。明白之後，就是絕對的安靜了。
這還沒完，過了一段日子。

對方如果突然又改變態度，水瓶座竟然能既往不咎問也不問，慇勤依舊，完全沒有尊嚴可談。只要能和對方開心的在一起，過去不重要，未來也不重要，面子不重要，金錢不重要，時間不重要，自己也不重要。

天平失衡，感情重重的壓在心底，自己卻飄在了半空。太在乎對方，迷失了自我，幸福也變得虛無。自己都不愛，誰還會珍惜。

水瓶座一旦付出，便是徹底，不可收回。感情投入的越多越是傷的重。
最擅長的是難為自己。不想對方難過，只好讓自己難過。總是認為自己有超乎尋常的承受力，把自己想得太堅強，而把別人想得太脆弱。不知道，受傷的其實是自己，只是不知道如何表現出來。

愛，這個字對水瓶座來說，太沉重珍貴了，無法用語言詮釋。一旦說出口，猶如遠古的文物，被發掘出土暴露於空氣中，變得面目全非，失去本來的價值。
所以，不輕易說。

只需一次，水瓶座便把一生的精力耗盡，只因執著，便落得傷痕纍纍。那段感情如強酸腐蝕著那顆麻木的心，穿了一個洞，再也無法彌補。時間是世界上最有力的矬子，把空洞的毛邊漸漸撫平，不再擱人。每當寒風吹過，猶聞隱約淒涼的蕭蕭聲，似輓歌。

只需一次，水瓶座便不再幻想，於是狠狠將自己摔碎，拒絕熔化拼湊。因為怕熔了記憶，怕熔了那個遠遠的背影，怕熔了自己千年的期盼。

之後，水瓶座依然談笑風生，依然開朗豁達，繼續著一段接一段的新感情，重複著一切，因為無法承受寂寞。

人們都說水瓶花心，見一個愛一個，水瓶座會哈哈一笑，說"哪有？冤啊！"。其實心裡在滴著血，臉上卻得笑的燦爛，安慰自己"我是誰啊！哪會那麼弱呢！"
有人說水瓶座太冷酷太自私，自以為了不起。可是誰又瞭解，水瓶座的心，容量很小，只能有一個，且不具修改性。除了那個人，其他所有自動歸為一種程序。

因為無法虛偽，所以甜言蜜語都吝嗇給予。因為天真，所以至死之前仍在等待。因為沒有勇氣，所以眼睜睜放手真愛無能為力。

當看到一個瓶子在瘋狂地快樂或悲傷時，請千萬不要被迷惑，水瓶總是不由自主地交錯操縱著快樂與悲傷。其實並不像看到的那麼快樂，同樣的，也不像看到的那麼悲傷。只是悲傷時，喜歡帶上快樂的面具，而當水瓶快樂時，悲傷又不肯輕易放過。

只有真正懂得水瓶座的人，才能看見眼底那一縷似有似無的哀傷，才能明白是什麼讓水瓶如此的義無反顧，是什麼讓水瓶變得如此忽冷忽熱捉摸不定，才能體會水瓶的堅強只是竭力掩飾的脆弱。

星相上說，水瓶座往往不被所愛的人珍惜。我想，是為什麼呢？也許答案就在心中，只是水瓶座的本性不願承認而已。水瓶座除了需要一個深愛自己包容一切的人以外，還需要一個心理醫生

2010-06-24T01:35:00.006+08:00

25th June 2010
我的电话正式去天堂了，暂时应该联络不到我~不知是否又会像上次一过就是一个月没电话!

my temp phone DIED~ seems like the battery have some problems...cant get it on properly without flashing white & black screen -_____-"!

haix~guess I'll have to repair my own phone ONE OF THE DAYS!- W880i (whereby the keypad have some problems!)

26th June 2010
went back sch to join their band practices.. sounds so weird when i heard the conductor asking them what's the time stated in their indemnity form that the practice ends..
(*i was like omg, they're using indemnity for additional Sat practice?.. that's perhaps when i realize "I'M NO LONGER A KID ^^.."hoho~kk I'm guess I'm mean =p

anyway today played 1st parts with Wei Liang & Desmond.. Desmond played half half for 1st & 2nd parts *dots* =.="

(z.z) haix guess i'll have to switch to either 2nd or 3rd parts..or else will be abit unproportionate?
[excluding me..1st - 2 pple, 2nd - 2pple, 3rd - 1pple]; i believe 1st are kind of strong enough, 2nd sounds abit out of tune sometimes.. 3rd, er.. FINGERING/positioning problem X10000?]

o_O!! oh ya there's totally NO JUNIORS (GIRLS) this time round?? what happens to the girls! + . + awww~

ZzzZ.. during the break, Wei liang/ Desmond mentioned something about they found my batch pics in the band room.. =.=" Im soOOoo gonna ask them to take out & (DESTROY EVIDENCE) haa..

CANT BELIEVE ~ the hello kitty air refresher tat i used during my batch time was still kept in the trombone case which Kings seems to be using right nw.. (the refresher super gross already can -__-" yet the guys can still say the casing v cute can still "KEEP" in the trombone case) *omg faints* at least discard the refresher & keep the casing [didn't know tat they have hello kitty fetish lolx..]

O_o BARELY MOVE FROM ONE POSITION TO THE NEXT!~ tried to oil it abt X50 times yet it doesn't seems to help.. Guess the trombone is in need of SUPER trombone SLIDE OIL (which will guarantees 100% smoothness after use - hmm some1 should go & invent something as awesome like tat :) i guess the junior most probably trying to train his arm muscles for NAFA or something.. but dun haf to torture the next person using it mah aiyOOo

28th June 2010
*sighs* the new HR manager (Clarence) asked my part time colleague Wendy to leave..& today was her last day of work (sad).. seems like Christine is on a lookout for a new job & Ng seems to be sourcing for a backup route as well...

people just seems to be leaving one after the other (Joe- leaving in Aug.. Audrey in Sept)..
wonders when will i leave..? after more arrows shooting sessions..? (o.O) <-- Qx(-Q)/)

2010-06-22T01:40:00.004+08:00

21st June 2010~
*sighs* felt super disappointed in one way or another... cant believe 3 songs are taken out from the play list for concert! - bye bye *Costa del sol, Jericho & Silver Dragon*

-all these 3 songs taken out are not exactly difficult pieces i believe as long as they're willing to practice HARD ENOUGH...- yet sadly time isnt on their side & it seems like there's no other way already; believe conductor doesnt want tat as well~

Songlist left -> March April May, In the presence of heroes, Selections from the rolling stones, Percussion ensemble, Tanglewood overture, breakout, Abba Gold, Instant concert~ nt exactly song pieces tat i would luv..

kind of wonder if they would actually feel sad or disappointed that some song pieces that they practiced are being taken out.. (i believe only those who put in their best effort will feel tat way..)

somehow, im starting to miss band in NP.. -> my beloved trombone, band mates & the difficult song pieces which i would struggle through~

2010-06-19T23:13:00.004+08:00

Pics as promised!~ *my Temp. Bf - Jupiter Trombone..
(hmm, guess it weighs quite a ton too, btw the way of opening the case is kind of special lol)

a model made on the new outlook of JYSS~

*kind of liked the song below.. havent even seen the music sheet, but it doesnt seems like we'll be playing for concert except for the saxophone players doing the solos... (aww~ anyway the song rox wif some solos here & there) -enjoy~-

2010-06-15T23:53:00.003+08:00

*apologies__* abt sat.. i think i flared up abit & was ignoring __..perhaps im just not used to us playing 1st parts together~ was abit annoyed..

Hmm.. or perhaps i can only play together with a few people which i recognizes - those who put in efforts in what they do? haa.. like what they says -nth in this world is free.. u have to make sacrifices in order to gain things..-

[*super missed the times i played with bz.. she can TOLERATE wif me! cos since pri /sec schs im always out of timing.. (as if rushing for train.. even till nw!)] a memory which seems to b blurred out as time passed.. :o[

*sighs* when can i get rid of my bad habits... =___="

shall post some pics up soon i suppose.. pics of the sec sch & all the changes that's happening in it! & most importantly my TEMP. BF- Jupiter Trombone~

Lolx.. its like what yw says someone have been abusing her "lao gong" bass trombone while she was away for the past few years.. the trigger totally out of use/ tune ; & cant even be used already

= seriously o_o" i wonder if the juniors treat instruments like a music file or something just anyhow throw.. hit or whatever else tat i cant tink of that happens to the pitiful instrument=

* i believe any1 who sees the state of the trombones tat they're using will faint *

-DENTS & DENTS & EVEN MORE DENTS / Valves that are STRUCK, V V STRUCK, V V V V STRUCK ~ it seems even the Jupiter trombone is unable to escape its fate... wif afew dents

Conclusion: *SUPER ABUSIVE JUNIORS*

2010-06-08T01:02:00.011+08:00

argh!!~ i hate my SKIN ALLERGY, i believe its this ->Atopic Dermatitis (Eczema)

Descriptions:
Atopic dermatitis frequently occurs in young children, although may start in young adults, and can continue into adult life.

The rash of atopic dermatitis, often called eczema, occurs where a person scratches. In infancy, the rash occurs on the chest, cheeks and scalp, where the child is able to scratch. Older children and adult typically have the rash in the skin folds of the elbows and behind the knees, although may also occur on the face, neck, hands, feet and back.The rash is red, often flakes or oozes, and has small blisters or bumps. There are often excoriations, or areas of broken skin, from aggressive scratching.

went wif my sis to get it treated at specialist skin clinic (http://www.specialistskin.com.sg/), however it doesn't seems to be improving =I (hmm.. could it b bcos i stopped the oral medication? o_O?; haix~ doesnt feel safe eating medication =(.. better stick with the moisturizer tat the doctor asked me to get.. =.="

From websites:
Oral steroids. Rarely, short courses of oral steroids are required to achieve control of a severe flare of atopic dermatitis. Extreme caution should be used, as while the eczema typically gets better on the oral steroids, a “rebound effect” can occur with worsening of the skin soon after the steroids are stopped. If oral steroids are required, the dose should be tapered slowly to minimize this risk.

(only problem? i almost everyday dozed off immediately after bathing sia... hw to apply b4 i ZzzZz off? *sighs*~ somemore everyday will in *AIR CON* office sia.. omg lah -_-")

i shd really do smthing =__=" slap myself awake before i ZzZzz so early! lol jk~

2010-06-06T12:43:00.004+08:00

Story about "LEARN"

I've learned smiled without expression

I've learned how to face my inner fear

I've learn Devil and Angel's language

I learn how to kill the megalosaurus in Black Forest

However...

However, i cant learn how to forget you

To get over you is the hardest thing in the world

2010-05-24T23:41:00.010+08:00

= 你虽然是笑着，但为何觉得你的心是在哭泣? =

*thankfully* everything all's well for C____, really didn't know how to comfort her when she's like tat.. glad tat she's giving him a chance ^^

14th May 2010
*woots* i've moving on to grade 2 violin book.. i even bought the elementary progressive studies to improve ! >$ per mth to spend le =.="

Things @ workplace~
E_____ have been seriously getting on our nerves.. saying "yes" to things without even knowing what exactly she's promising & when people asked how come unable to do as promised; E_____ would deny saying anything & sends out emails saying people misunderstood her words..
[~!@#$%^&*(&^%$#@!~!@#$%^] so many ears in the conference room heard what you said so clearly & yet you could say tat??? =i cant believe myself totally tat such person exists=

it isn't once, its so many times already...yet u push it away as though its NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS... seriously lor ~!@#$%^&*()*&^%!

-> E_____ promised J_____ that you'll submit the allocation to her on Tuesday (end of Apr) & now its already May & you DARE TO SAY that no clear instructions have been given by the HR Manager saying that you're supposed to do this?? (!@#$^&%$#$%$#@!~!@#$%^&)..

27th May!~
Adeline from L__V called & requested for the cessation date for some of our FW workers, it was supposed to be C_____ who'll be doing it.. but she's on leave hence i tried to help out... (under CK's help we managed to find some "interesting things".. it seems like the company have been paying the workers Trpt & agent $ as well =.=") i alerted the SOM & some others via email...

29th May ~
It seems like they called for a meeting abt tat issue above... C_ called me & warn me about the incoming missiles.. as my name was mentioned in the meetings..

C_ mentioned that they were finger pointing & saying why wasnt i checking such things [i was like damned pissed off lah when i heard abt tat.. NO ONE IN THE FIRST PLACE asked me to check for smthing like tat. & the file NEVER ever reaches to my side except tat fateful day!

Tat day i jux so happen to HELP OUT / perhaps i was being a busybody~ i manage to dug out some mistakes & pple turn over & push all the blame on me? what the heck...

i told C_ tat they can haf cannons/ machine guns aiming for me.. but i will seriously NOT gif it a DAMNED...they can FIRED me for all i care, i dun mind giving all the leftover trash to the nxt person who'll take over..

Uncle Calvin have moved over to Campaign ~ & it seems like C_ will be joining him as well... i would be lying if i said that im alright with pple tat i'm so close with.. leaving all of a sudden~
(it just seems so inevitable that pple gets out from ur life & they wun appear back again / even if they do.. it shall never b like the same ever again..)

31st May 2010
*woots* extra income as below... =)

04th June 2010
*aww~ lina & lucy moved over to their new office today.. did a crash course of skillsconnect for lina -glad tat they're moving to campaign office as well.. much nearer to her home :)-

NEWSPAPER REPORT HEADLINES
Did u guys see the FRONT page of the straits times on 3rd June 2010?? about the "Kallang slashers: Sarawak worker charged with murder"?

can you believe that one of the worker charged was an employee of the company that i'm working with right now?? -> "Sylvester Barogok"who's a Malaysian from Sarawak~

it really comes all together already, the reason why the operation manager (Calvin Koh) said that this worker wanted to resign on 31st May 2010 so suddenly... -> Calvin said that he must have wanted to RUN AWAY with his last salary & go hide, but *SADLY* even before he gotten his last salary he was being caught (*Phew~ thankfully the company rules for resignees is that they have to turn up personally on every Friday afternoon to collect their last salary =);

Calvin koh, joking said that give his last salary to him then he'll pass the money to him in JAIL. (LoL, u wait long long lor!~ -anyway it seems like extra income for company?? since he wont be out till *god* knows when.. up to 20 yrs of jail??-)

*thankfully as well, the MOM now bans application of Temporary Permits for Sarawak Malaysians from coming into spore to work..* -safety precaution?-

(*sighs*, new HR manager taking over CJ, -> Clarence.. i really if can get along as well as with CJ o(≥ω≤)o..)

2010-05-11T22:31:00.009+08:00

[叹气~
我想说的话，我说不出口。。
我想安慰的人，但却又不知道要说/做什么。。
我答应的事，我做不到。。

不仅会想我到底建立了些什么，为何这一切那么脆弱
还是一切都是我一厢情愿?

感觉一切都不一样了，
人会变，心会变，道路会变。。
好像没什么东西是永久不改变的，一点安全感都感觉不到

一切变得让我觉得我似乎来到了一个很陌生的地方
不仅会回想过去开心的往事。

不知为何会对人感到害怕。。
因为今天遇到的你，未必是10年后的你。。
我把我面前的门打开，让人进入~但人过了一些时间还是会离开，而门又会关上

从逢会让人失措，不知该说些什么，一时之间似乎找不到话题谈。。

敞开心怀与人相处的这段时间，过后只会变成回忆。。容易变得模糊/忘记。

好讨厌这种感觉，也好讨厌自己无法和人像以前那样了。。

2010-05-09T20:34:00.000+08:00

Prosecutor Princess: Goodbye My Princess - English Lyrics

2010-05-06T02:05:00.004+08:00

梦的怒放- 魏晨

梦的芽快乐生长
梦就是我心的方向
她是我的信仰
勇敢去闯

梦是最美的地方
梦就是全部的希望
我骄傲的倔强
是我的力量

谱写我梦的乐章
有你陪伴我身旁
挺起我坚实的胸膛
炙热的心能燃烧太阳

就给我一双翅膀
让我自由的飞翔
麦克风为我鼓掌
聆听我放声歌唱

就给我一双翅膀
拥有冲破云霄的力量
期待着最后的怒放

梦是最美的地方
梦就是全部的希望
我骄傲的倔强
是我的力量

谱写我梦的乐章
有你陪伴我身旁
挺起我坚实的胸膛
炙热的心能燃烧太阳

就给我一双翅膀
让我自由的飞翔
麦克风为我鼓掌
聆听我放声歌唱

就给我一双翅膀
拥有冲破云霄的力量
期待着最后的怒放

就给我一双翅膀
让我自由的飞翔
麦克风为我鼓掌
聆听我放声歌唱

就给我一双翅膀
拥有冲破云霄的力量
期待着最后的怒放

2010-05-05T23:07:00.006+08:00

8th April '10
Jack gave us a tour ard Resort World Sentosa.. took some pics along the way & muz say that the view are quite beautiful esp. in the evening *though my camera didnt capture it so well..*

pics taken during the tour =)

28th April '10
Went for the Skills Connect System Training.. there's gonna be no more SRP & SDF system / hard copies forms that i have to fill up until i *vomit blood* ^^

*Just FYI(for your info.)~ SRP(Skills Redevelopment Programme) is a national funding incentive programme that helps employers send their employees for certifiable training.... [Absentee Payroll is a funding incentives paid to the employer.]

SDF (Skills Development Fund) offers assistance as an incentive to companies to mount training programmes for employees.

however the Skills Connect System is still being cranky!! *nt all courses are updated as accordingly in the system...* (rawrs!, hopefully it'll stable down soon..)

Skills Connect System Training conducted by COMAT Training centre..

4th May '10
Ricky treated me, Christine & Desna dinner at Rong Guan Seafood.^_^; food wasnt bad @ all *strongly recommends*)

after tat we went to Chevrons for cakes, ice-creams & chit chatting session...

*anyway it seems like all of a sudden quite a few of my colleagues having problems wif their love matters (eg. Desna juz broke up wif her bf & Christine seems like getting a divorce wif her husband)

after their chit chatting session.. i jux feel like -love/matters of de heart is something too complicated/complex to understand?- *haa, they kept saying im too young & will only get to knw once i find the one.. o well~ :oP

5th May '10..
morale at work at the start of this mth is super low.. various things have been happening & i do suppose more pressure is given as well =.="

some more i kena rejection from ______ today..felt super bad for the entire day
(it's was kind of expected i guess, shdnt even haf made the effort at all lor..) *sobs*

Really 2day, its nt my day @ all!

2010-04-17T02:54:00.005+08:00

fell in luv wif tis song =)

天真

回忆还是温热的
但承诺已经冷却了
我的天真在泪水里沉沦
孤独它让我无法负荷
不用假装还爱着
捨不得还是放开了
我的天真早就摔成遍地的忐忑
失去了所有顔色
这次我真的痛了
真的彻底醒了
我试着洒脱
换来的只是伤痕
我爱到痛了
你却留下我一个人
埋葬我的天真
还能够说些什么
当快乐已经掏空了
我的天真早就碎成遍地的忐忑
努力平凑着却再也无法完整
这次我真的痛了
真的彻底醒了
我试着洒脱
换来的只是伤痕
我爱到痛了
你却留下我一个人
埋葬我的天真
我哭的累了
没有梦是好的
别再说爱我
你给的全是悔恨
我爱到痛了
你却留下我一个人
埋葬我的天真

2010-04-17T02:17:00.002+08:00

my nail art pic! though most of it have faded by nw already :(

few days ago suddenly came upon an interesting show & I've been watching it since then-> "检察官公主" kind of captivating in some portions i guess..-like the character of "徐律师"~ ^^

*kind of admire the determination of the gal.. if only............its easy as what we imagined/watched"

*ting's too exhausted to think abt other pple already, never ending work juz stressed one out to the max when things aint done on time and no appreciation is shown when things are done well..because for that portion of salary tat's wat pple expected... (felt kind of cheated, rather have a low salary & end work timely and be able to have sufficient sleep .. =.=")

在想，会遇到你吗？还是时间并没到？
之后真的会有那种感觉吗？好想知道啊。。

2010-03-21T00:29:00.003+08:00

this disastrous month of march.. i could only use 3 words to describe it ( BUSY LIKE HELL ) =.="

there aint really many days where i could go back home happily @ 5.30pm... always work till ard 8-10pm or worst 12pm.. (*sighs, the payroll executive just resign this early much as she needs to take care of her mother who just had an heart operation);

was rushing for the IR8A for the company & it's super MANUAL! cos no system is used yet.. damned it *the EASYPAY/EPE system aint that reliable yet*[__ told me that he'll be in search for a new system for the company like Timesoft or Oracle... o-O"]

*super duper apologies to mw, yl... esp mw, replying ur msg only one week later; & still thinks that yl's concert is nxt week (27th mar) when its on 21st mar.. Just wat am i thinking??
*sorry sorry*

Sat, went JB to relieve the stress & i guess i went abit overboard $_$!!! ; went to do pedicure, manicure and nail art..(*since when was i into wasting such $?? dun ask mi.. i wasnt myself i guess lolx).. -& i finally managed to do my name sticker.. been wanting to do a set since years ago!~ =p-

the nail art pics i shall post them later on when i'm free =)

Tuesday (23/03), "Calvin"'s birthday... "CJ" suddenly suggest that we go JB for seafood after work to celebrate for him... he called up wendy & christine to ask them to prepare their passports & wait for us after work since christine is on leave & wendy is working at her church

then CJ sent me back home to take my passports & asked me to pack some stuffs for overnight (juz in case) :p ard 7pm+ he went back to pick up wendy at Woodlands while i got onto Calvin's car with Christine and were on our way to JB!!

*funny things tat happen* Calvin overshot the custom checkpoint for the officer to check our passports & even had to ask the driver behind us to make reverse backwards.. lolx~

hmm on the whole the food was kind of okie i guess.. had seafood - crabs & crayfish and some other dishes etc... after tat even went to eat durians! then i went off wif Calvin as i head to his place in JB to overnight since its too kinda of too late by the time CJ finish sending everyone back in spore.. (so in the end only christine & wendy went back to spore first) ..

Calvin said that we gotta haf to wake up in the morning @ 6.15am so that we could prepare everything & exit his place @ 6.40pm in case there's a jam @ JB.. (then he woke me up when he turned on the lights at 6.15am lor, -didnt even realise tat my hp alarm went off- guess his neighbours was kind of noisy in the morning as tat kind of woke me as well)..

sianx & while i was on my way down to his living room, i missed a step lor *thankfully it was already quite near to the ground floor* luckily i didnt sprained/hurt myself.. but i was telling him tat if i was totally blanked out or still in lala land when i went down his 2storey house rite i will confirm roll down lor.. (o_O)" *haa*

(anyway there wasnt any jams @ customs but there's jams when he's exiting his house) o.O"

=& we made it back to office for work though its was a bit later than what we shd arrive =

Wednesday(24/03)~ worked till 10pm+ again super sianx.. but then CJ handed me a company envelope when we left the office... *took a peek* and it was a salary adjustment letter *hohohoho*!! it definitely made me felt tat the past few days/mths of OT had some effects~ ^^ $350 increment nt bad nt bad =) but somehw its dreads me knowing tat my work will never had a boundary / an "END"... =.= soon i'll be the panda @ the zoo due to insufficient sleep [so yeah.. better dun get on my nerves when i dun haf enf sleep or else u'll get it from me! haa.. jkjk]

*arghs* Calvin & CJ are seriously getting on my nerves trying to be "matchmaker" by teasing me & the auditor Melvin.. =.=" (!@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@#$%^&*) rawrs they're testing my tolerance i guess.. making jokes about me wif Vincent and wif YC is nt enf then nw wif Melvin.. wat sia... so many pple tat can joke abt =.="

=i wonder if i really made my choice but why it seems like i couldn't set my mind in doing it=

procrastinating again & again... haix no matter wat this mth is the deadline i guess..gotta make a choice!

2010-02-27T13:57:00.003+08:00

One of FT Island's past songs =p

2010-02-23T23:34:00.003+08:00

Last fri,went to did my uni last min submission of documents for NUS-university hall; super sianx cos i totally forgotten about it & even had to take one day leave from work just to do the submission. somemore i havent yet completed all registration *sighs* pray super hard tat i can get into one *proper* uni..

raws! last weekend.. out of the blue, i decided to *chop off* my long rebond hair to the shoulder length and cut my fringe to super short too =super unbearable heat!= ~ lol i kind of looks so weird/awkward right now haha.. =[

- Why does it sways so easily wif juz words-
- Simply why cant i be determined in the things that i set out to do-

2010-01-30T00:40:00.007+08:00

thoughts tat one may often haf..

why do we keep people distance?
why do we hold back some thoughts?
why do we keep parts of ourselves hidden?
why can't people just get along?
why are we sometimes afraid to just say no?
why do we put up with people we don't like?

*sighs cant figure it all out yet~

23th jan went to Malaysia wif my colleagues, she drove us over there.. it was my 1st time gg to Malaysia lor, super embarrassing cos even though Malaysia is like soOOoo near yet i never had the chance of gg..(strict parents? *clueless).... so we went there wif a SUPER EXCITED feeling to go shopping & haf seafood ->some more the traffic flow was so smooth~

our 1st stop was a shop to collect the hampers that my colleague ordered (it's like 8 cookies Hampers?? cookies were super nice & it filled up completed her car boot~) then we went to haf breakfast at "ah soon" bak kut teh~ nt v. fantastic i muz say~ next stop was Holiday Plaza..

*upon arriving at Holiday Plaza, we suddenly realized that most of the shops started to close down their shop.. *being very puzzled we went over to the spectacles shop & inquire... only to know tat the "sultan" for JB.. passed away the day before & all entertainment/business would haf to stop work for one day.. =___=" my colleague even joke tat i "克死" him for the 1st time i *stepped* into JB.. o_O" then after we juz haf our lunch b4 gg back spore wif a discouraged feelings~ =[

5th Feb!! my colleagues decided to go over to JB after work & stay overnight at *Uncle Calvin"'s hse.. (2 storey sia)... by the time we reach there we had our dinner wif yummy *大头~ & sotongs etc.. before heading to 大嘴八Kbox for singing session of cos =p!

*yay!~ Tuesday got my *ang bao* / bonus - $_20... hmm nt bad nt bad~ ^^

anyway wishing everyone Happy Chinese New Year !~

2010-01-11T00:37:00.005+08:00

*yay~ finally a gathering wif the gals on sat! ^^ had a great time @ vivo chatting & walking ard... & thanks to min wee for recommending the below show.. its hilarious & Lee Hong Ki is in the show as well.. one of the actor for you're beautiful that i mentioned in my previous post.. haha, so cute & funny

[Lol, on the whole the show is very hilarious for some of the portions~ u pple shd watch it!]

Below is one episode of the show =p; Enjoy~ Hong Ki sings very well =]

2010-01-01T11:23:00.002+08:00

TRUE BY RYAN CABRERA

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
It's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way that's true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

2009-12-31T22:18:00.002+08:00

watched the below 2 movies tis week - Sherlock Holmes & Avatar *In 3D*both are amazing ^^

Next movies that i'm interested in =p

2009-12-13T20:48:00.018+08:00

*hehe* lately been into this Korean show... so shall recommend to u pple :p
(guess my favorite would be "姜新禹" / Jeong Yong Hwa

Title of the show: 原来是美男啊

剧情介绍

《原来是美男》讲述了20多岁偶像组合成员的成长过程以及围绕他们发生的爱情和纠葛。讲述了农村出身的淳朴少年偶然成为偶像组合的一员后所经历的各种故事。通过张根锡饰演的男主演的成长历程，向人们展示了少年偶像们普通人的一面和他们在华丽的舞台背后经历的鲜为人知的痛苦。而朴信惠则是将一人饰演两个双胞胎兄妹，与张根奭上演浪漫爱情戏……

经典语录
因为看不到，所以很闷，所以不要站在我看不到的地方~

The process of 黄泰京 creating the "猪兔子"~

+ =

Favorite Song: 默默無語

当初不该答应当初不该认识
假装看不到无法看到
根本不该看到你
当初应该逃跑应该装没听到
假装听不到无法听到
根本不该听到你的爱情
让我悄无声息的明白爱情
把爱情悄无声息的交给我
连空气都充满你的身影却如此消失
爱悄悄无声息的离开我
爱悄悄无声息的抛弃我
该说些什么
紧闭的嘴唇独自恍然若失
悄无声息的来
为何如此的痛
为何总是心痛
除了看不到你除了你不在身边
一切都如往常一样
让我悄无声息的明白爱情
把爱情悄无声息的交给我
连空气都充满你的身影却如此消失
爱悄悄无声息的离开我
爱悄悄无声息的抛弃我
该说些什么
紧闭的嘴唇独自恍然若失
眼泪悄无声息的流淌
心墙悄无声息的崩塌
爱悄无声息的等待
爱悄无声息的受伤
失魂落魄像傻瓜般望着天空哭泣
离别悄无声息的接近我
离别悄无声息的来到我身边
毫无准备就要放你走
我的心恍然若失
悄无声息的来

One of the songs: 如何是好

ha go do man kun ku de pu ne lio nun mu li na (送你走一步眼泪就流下来)
ha go do man kun ku de ga ka nio do nun mu li hu lou ba (你再走一步的话又流出了眼泪)
su nun bu do du su ne mi ra do ta su ma lu go su lou (在伸出手也无法触及的地方)
ku de ka nan tie cha ji mu ta go (你走了抓不住)
na nun hu man ni jio (我只有哭泣)

ho do ka jio ho do ka jio (如何是好如何是好)
ku de ga do na ga ne yo (你离开了)

Ho do ka jio ho do ka jio (如何是好如何是好)
ni do go do na ga ne yo (你将我丢下离开了)
sa ram he yo sa ram he yo (我爱你我爱你)

nu nun wa bu lou bo ji ma (大声呐喊着)
ku dan to ji mu te yo (你却听不见)
ka sunmu lun ba wa ji gu i su ni (因为我是用心在呼喊)
ha lun nun zhu ni ji wa bu zhu ma mu do bu la (将一整天擦去又再次来到)
ha lun nun zhu ni hi do la ji ma po ta xi do e la (向这一天道别却又再次来临)
su nun bu do du su ne mi lou do hai ne su hong nun go su lou (在伸出手也无法拥抱的地方)
ku de ka ji ma cha ji mu ta go (你走了却抓不住)
na nun hu man ni jio (我只有哭泣)

ho do ka jio ho do ka jio (如何是好如何是好)
qia gu ka de man bu ya yo (总是看到你)

ho do ka jio ho do ka jio (如何是好如何是好)
nan ku de sa ram ha nun de (我爱着你)
bi a ne yo bi a ne yo (对不起对不起)

ne ma li de vi xi na yo (听到我的话了吗)
Tang xi tu lan wa cuo yo (再回来吧)
ku de ha ni nion (没有你)
na an ga ni ta yo (我无法过下去)

ho do ka jio ho do ka jio (如何是好如何是好)
na no ji ku da bu in te (你一直是我的唯一)

ho do ka jio ho do ka jio (如何是好如何是好)
ku de ga do ne ga ne yo (但你却离开了)

ho do ka jio ho do ka jio (如何是好如何是好)
na do ge do ne ga ne yo (你丢下我离开了)
sa ram he yo sa ram he yo (我爱你我爱你)

nu nun wa bu lou bo ji ma (大声呐喊着)
ku dan to ji mu te yo (你却听不见)
ka sun mu lun ba wa ji gu i su ni (因为我是用心在呼喊)

2009-11-24T13:54:00.002+08:00

went for steamboat buffet wif colleagues @ chuan yi ping at bugis there.. the pics of food nt exactly wat we ate though.. lolx Wendy took pics of the food that our neighbor was eating cos ours left wif nthing much except gravy ~ quite nice de food (ate 4 cups of ice creams till i was bloated =])

the christmas tree was kind of nice @ bugis but the lights of the tree were off b4 we could take some beautiful shots wif it =[

2009-11-16T00:35:00.010+08:00

Wohoo~ most probably gonna go catch the leonid meteor showers this coming tuesday (17th Nov 09)...

2009-11-15T21:40:00.002+08:00

mini celebration for Wendy's birthday~ @ Sakae Sushi!
it was RAINING heavily, despite that we had some FUN~

Haha~ as you can see, Wendy sneaked out of the kawaii Froggie from Sakae Sushi Glass Cabinet =]

2009-11-15T12:18:00.005+08:00

haix.. been chased after the director wif the updates of the new incoming workers for one of the jobsite...

after sending out that update email, felt so relieved however at the same time felt really helpless..

_________cant say that you need pple by XX/XX/2009 date & by all means i HAVE to get it ready by then right, there's surely to be some hiccups here & there~.. even if you keep chasing after me.. if the pple are NOT even arriving in spore, there's NOTHING i can do kk?? same goes to their training courses... if they keep failing the courses repeatedly, what can i do? its nt like i wan them to FAIL.. [frustrating indeed]

few days ago... heard from close colleague that one of the _____ say the word **** at my HR manager just because he would like him to sign a leave form (unpaid leave) for one of the site manager... whats wrong abt having the department head sign the leave form before giving the HR department to acknowledge..

when the leave form reaches the HR and skips the department head portion.. _____ gif such a face being unhappy ... then when we give everything to the department head to sign then before we acknowledge you say **** ?? i seriously cant believe that vulgar word juz came out of the mouth from _____ though i heard this from my colleague who was present [i was busy wif my work @ tat time till i didnt notice i guess]

& nw _____ & ______ seems like shooting arrows at my back & front for my management of leave for the 1k+++ workers... *damned it* i'm nt a dartboard/ shooting board, kk..

if the manual calculation of leave balance for 1k++++ can be managed so easily that why dont ____ try it?? it's like i have 5 files for the filling of their leave for this year & you can just imagine how many pple took leave for the year... screw it, i'm preparing the manual calculation for the input into the Easypay system so that they could manage it by system next time & not manually k? [they juz arent grateful tat pple are trying to clear up all the mess left behind by previous personnels, time is juz nt enough... ]

Quotes:

Anybody can become angry, that is easy; but to be angry with the right person, and to the right degree, and at the right time, and for the right purpose, and in the right way, that is not within everybody's power, that is not easy.

2009-11-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

some songs from Five Times August are actually quite captivating !~ eg Most Uncommon thing.. etc

enjoy tis short video of the song~

2009-10-31T12:29:00.007+08:00

tis is actually taken from a draft in Oct; finally had some courage to post it out.. =[

haix..been feeling super depressed, tired & frustrating with myself lately ~

Just realized that even if things are going well before... its just a matter of time before everything crumples before your eyes & falling into the deepest of the abyss of despair..

perhaps wishing for a normal boring life is really too out of reach.. falling deeper & deeper into the mess left by previous personnel... why is it in such a MESS? why am i trying to clear this GIANT mess & getting myself all the scolding.... the culture in the company is seriously problematic, sending emails just to let another know one single message.. (want black & white evidence?? verbal just doesnt cut it...) Just what is the point of PUSHING blame to one another?? what will you eventually achieve?? - i seriously dun get it-

i guess i'm at the stage of tendering my resignation for doing such a lousy job at work..
Not doing following up with the site managers.. chasing them for tis & tat & giving them calls every now & then
Not managing well of workers leave & MCs manually.. (1k+ pple... )
Not giving them latest /newest employment contract.. still haf to manually photocopy 150+ contracts =.="
Not able to generate their monthly staffing statistics of over 1k pple.. / foreign workers statistics Not able to manage their personal information accurately into the system
Not managing their foreign worker levy waiver not doing filling and letting them stack higher and higher..

seriously i'm cant take it anymore... screw all these things..complaining~just to get them out of my head

YES its' all my fault so ya.. escaping once again (its not even like i'm trying to be successful in life.. just a simple life with no such messed up thing will do)

8.30am early this moment another thing just screwed up and its really ****ing annoying and one of the staff there told me not to give up so easily and take it as a learning experience..) i wana take all of this as a learning experience but ITS REALLY TOO MUCH..

Just who am i to think i could juggle all these and give pple the kind of results that they were expecting.. sorry but really felt like screaming and get away from my work..... =in the process of typing my resignation letter :[ Comfort zone~ will you always be there for me i dun need anything other than you..

(i wonder what initiative is?) why can some achieve that while others need to be pushed to get it done.. =guess i'm the type that need the pushing too.. )

Nov. just tendered resignation letter but ................... (=.=)"" <<<~ [ !@#$%^%$#@!] (o_o)!!
[dun really wana talk abt it i guess, *_ _ _ _ _ ~ ]

ting really appreciating that ____ been there for her, made lunches/dinner/snacks like wat a mother would do.... accepting my pickiness & encouraging me along the way o_0,

[ juz realized that i cant even understand myself not to say handle other difficult pple..]

+ nt to worry, i'm FINE~ juz eager to go out on a date wif gals like previously...~+

2009-09-06T20:10:00.002+08:00

hmm~ today 1st lesson was kk i guess, learning the positioning...& playing of few notes (seems like my positioning of the hand & fingers still nid to work on it =[ )

Goal/Aim for few years down the road ~ to be able to play tis song.. *favorite*

it's best played together with the piano~^^

2009-09-05T21:58:00.004+08:00

31st Sept 09..
someone(i dunno who's he lah) juz so concidentally bought a blueberry cake and old chunky sotong balls & curry puffs to treat pple in the office..~ ^^ =will post pic soon :p =

1st Sept 09~
went to eat Manhattan Fish Market with work colleagues, *manager* treat lolx... total $106+ i tink =super nice meal=

the fries, soup & platter were super nice.. even the staffs @ Manhattan was humorous; as Uncle Calvin accidentally said that he want Ice Peach Tea as "Ice FISH Tea" lolx.. the response of the manager was tat he will make sure to add the "FISH" in his tea.. [lolx] then the platter for 2 came with only 4 prawns, then we called the manager and asked if we could haf another prawn as we have 5 pple mah... then manager said that he cant, bcos if he does tat the rest of the prawns will be crying as the prawns are couples lols..

(left to right)
Uncle Calvin, Christine, me, Wendy, CJ ^_^
[lolx.. Christine & Uncle stand so far away from each other]

5th Sept 09~
went shopping wif my sis @ Bugis, bought super duper lots of products from "Ettusais" & got double stamp for birthday month-> gt 2 small pink Ettusais bag & 1 big sized Ettusais bag... imagine how MUCH/MANY me & my sis bought.. lolx, but seriously their products are VERY GOOD as its "MEDICATED" for acne / oily/ dry skin / all skin types + they have makeup products as well (super tempted to get their new mascara)

Tml's will be my 1st LESSON for the violin.. super excited about the "CHICKEN KILLING" sound haaa~ will try & update tml if i'm free..[been super lazy to update lately & super tired!]

2009-08-29T21:09:00.005+08:00

WohoOOoo~ *today went wif my sis to Beauty World (bukit timah plaza) there to get my violin & register for the course = expensive as expected o_O!=

$265.20 in total, with the shoulder rest, violin, registration fee, course of 9mth(30min each for 4 lesson a mth, individual one) to me it seems like soOOoo SHORT!! then ard $75+ per mth [omg, gonna start eating grass le -haa-]

after the purchase went wif my sis opposite Beauty World to eat the frog's leg, super super super nice wif the porridge *recommended* but it sort of disgusts me while i was eating, my sis was like saying they sell LIVE frogs... kk she could haf said it after i finished my meal rite?, made mi nearly wan vomit out lor =___="

having my first lesson nxt sunday-6th Sept~ kind of anticipating, & have been reading up abit on the things =],

my darling, gonna b careful wif it.. seems like one string $1 for replacement o_o"

Plans so far:
Tml evening (30/08/09) gonna go out & haf a simple meal wif the family~
Tuesday (01/09/09) gonna haf meal after work wif colleagues (hope we wun get delayed or anything, we didnt managed to go Malaysian eat seafood that time *sad* havent yet been to Malaysian even though its like soOo near..
Tuesday (08/09/09) some 7th month dinner celebration together with the company colleagues..

*craving for "The Manhattan Fish Market"~ somemore i got their discount or something from NTUC email as its my BIRTHDAY MONTH *wohooOoo* ->

rawrs *getting older le* yet still younger than Uncle Calvin *muahaa* he's so much older than me, think by ard 11yrs yet still wan mi call him "kor kor" instead of UNCLE/ 大叔.. lols will see if can take pics wif colleagues during our "mini celebration" on tuesday mah then will perhaps post some pics up!

=haix, lately been super tired.. after work -> go home eat dinner -> bathe -> check email/facebook -> drop dead & into lala land -> then nxt morning the cycles goes again...didnt even have the time to properly chat wif my friends on how's their sch & stuffs=

2009-08-16T21:07:00.003+08:00

Devi Lovato - Solo Lyrics

You speak to me
And in your words I hear a melody
But in the twilight it's so hard to see
Whats wrong for me

I can't resist
Until you give the truth a little twist
As if your gonna get away with this
You're not sorry

I can't believe I fell for this

I fell through the hole
Down at the bottom of your soul
Didn't think you could go so low
Look at what you've done
Your losing me is what you've won
Got me planning to go solo, solo

You sing to me
Too bad you couldn't even stay on key
If your life is such a mystery
Why don't you just stick to acting?

Here we go again
You couldn't even find my number until when
You thought that you could get to my best friend
Without a script your game is lacking

I can't believe I fell for this

I fell through the hole
Down at the bottom of your soul
Didn't think you could go so low
Look at what you've done
Your losing me is what you've won
Got me planning to go solo, solo

I'd rather go to a party alone
Than have to walk around with you on my arm
Now that I'm proud to admit that we're done
Good luck trying to find me

Cause I didn't think you could go so low
Look at what you've done
Your losing me is what you've won
Got me planning to go solo

Now we're done
Cause you've got me planning to go solo, solo
Solo, solo

2009-08-16T19:51:00.004+08:00

*rawrs~ super long havent been blogging or shd i say "nth much to blog abt bah".. *been working* till super exhausted almost every week -haa~- & yesterday juz went to relieve alot by grabbing items from body shop ->

15 days more to ....... ^^ & 13 more days to go till Fizah special day

2009-06-24T23:38:00.001+08:00

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2009-06-19T00:22:00.003+08:00

Tuesday~
went to the movie & watch "DRAG ME TO HELL" the movie was... super GROSS, dun go watch it if u had a full meal before tat... somemore the SOUND EFFECTS IS LIKE SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER LOUD until u can go deaf those sorts~... & whenever something pops up... xt seems to be covering her eyes haaaaa~ really nt suitable for ghostly/spirtual related movies, but it seems like a good movie if u wan to "scare" ur gfs haaa....

[alot of disgusting scenes~! eyes in the cake, wat eat flies, drinking/ kissing the dead chemicals inside or smthing when the corpse fell... *vomits* ; but the bf in the movie is SUPER SWEET, willing to spend the money just to make sure that his gf is fine..rare nowadays i guess]

Thursday~
argh.. its so frustrating lately~ dad's been hospitalized last sunday, then sis seems to haf fallen in love wif a china guy @ shanghai & even planning an one to one trip wif him before she comes back to spore in july... heard the story from her hsemate(guy/ex bf for tat short period).. hw much truth is there exactly as well~ guys are juz so nt trustable in their words..

= can a short 6mths change a person totally?=

things juz sux from head to toe & xt is gg to HECK CARE everything.. she shd b old enf to take care of herself, if she doesnt there's nth much our side can do as well rite?!

sis felt kind of angry tat i was being so unconcerned abt dad condition... but hw much does she exactly knw, wat i feel? dun even feel like talking to her~

to me, dad is like a stranger... few weeks or a mths only comes back home few times... & when he does, he also goes to bed straight away = NEVER talk to him about his work etc & he doesnt even bother abt my stuffs as well.. so other than describing him as a stranger what can i say? = somemore, i dun tink i will ever forgive him 4 the things he did tat made the whole family...........=

xt would juz accepts whatever tat happens, its so much better tis way [like wat the character "Ozu Bezariusu"does.. in pandora hearts.]

too tired out from work... work till 8pm smtimes is really really really tiring~

2009-06-15T00:33:00.001+08:00

Unlove You by Ashley Tisdale

I felt in a perfect way
I never had a choice to make
Crest into your tidal wave
I didn't even stroke on
Sail right through your atmosphere
Close my eyes and land it here
I didn't see the trouble
And I didn't care

I can't unlove you
Can't do that
No matter how I tried
I'll never turn my back on someone who loves me too

I can do almost anything I have to
But there's one thing I cannot change
I almost kind of like the pain
I wear your tattoo like a stain
But it will take forever to fade away

I can't unlove you
Can't do that
No matter how I tried
I'll never turn my back on someone who loves me too
I can do almost anything I have to
But I can't unlove you
Oh no, why would I want to
I can't unlove you
Can't do that
I'll never get through that
Why would I want to

There's always time for other dreams
Why must we erase these things

I can't unlove you
Can't do that
No matter how I tried
I'll never turn my back on someone who loves me too
But I can't unlove you
Can't feel that
No matter how I tried
I won't turn my back on someone who loves me too
I can do almost anything I have to
But I can't unlove you

2009-06-15T00:27:00.005+08:00

an outing with the gals~ ^_^ i like this pic!

guess some would probably b in shock if they knew what happened at my home &
yet i'm still going out / working / continuing my life as though nothing happened...

= emotionless / heartless =

2009-06-12T23:50:00.002+08:00

hmm... work lately is super super busy -so many things to learn, eg insurance policy/endorsement covering public liability/vehicles etc etc~ procedures for medical re-examination, doing leave, filing, work permit application, s-pass application...yet to learnt the new software that the company installed -easypay- EPE..

alot of things learnt so far!! *almost too much information* looked through the employment act online on the website.. 99 pages.... =waHhhhhh= i only printed out 22pages at the office, LoLx!! one step @ a time i guess !

oh! btw did i mention? the HR Executive that came 15th May resigned already... =_=" she taught me abit of things i guess.. perhaps she's nt suitable for the job bah o_O"

xt been super TIRED lately + SPENDING alot of money on USELESS things... argh gonna save on spending on sun outings wif gals..

super nice "uncle calvin" treated mi,cj, christine to fruit juice & fruits today... haa, *super nice uncle* haa.. actually i tink he oso nt v. old lah, 30/31years lolx, wonder y he dun wan get married wif his gf -____-? considered late marriage soon le haa..jkjk..

xt really given up le lah... didnt even complete it @ all~ for soOooOooOOoo many weeks & its still like tat -sighs- *surrenders*

2009-06-07T23:08:00.001+08:00

Lolx.. tis is so funny, friend posted tis up on facebook.. for guys gg army!

2009-06-06T23:44:00.001+08:00

You didn’t have to walk away

I don’t know how to let this go,
And I don’t really want to know,
What it’s like without you in this life,
Your voice is breaking through the air
I can hear but I don’t care
What's it matter anyway, tonight.

But everywhere I go, I reminded of everything that's going on
That something isn’t right I can read the signs I know that something's wrong
But you didn’t have to walk away; no you didn’t have to walk away
You didn’t have to walk away from me, tonight
No, you didn’t have to walk away; you didn’t have to walk away; you didn’t have to walk away from me, tonight

I don’t wana be left with all,
The broken pieces as they fall,
If there was more time, I would hide this all away
But everywhere I go, I reminded of everything that's going on
That something isn’t right I can read the signs I know that something's wrong
But you didn’t have to walk away; no you didn’t have to walk away
You didn’t have to walk away from me, tonight
No, you didn’t have to walk away; you didn’t have to walk away; you didn’t have to walk away from me, tonight

Time, means everything, everything..
Time means everything, everything to me
But you didn’t have to walk away; no you didn’t have to walk away
You didn’t have to walk away from me, tonight
No, you didn’t have to walk away; you didn’t have to walk away; you didn’t have to walk away from me, tonight

2009-06-06T23:18:00.003+08:00

rawrs!~ lolx.. past 2 days i dunno y so "sotong" go until cck for NO REASON~ 1st was when calvin ask mi to join them/desna car go cck.. then the other time was when they cancelled the band gathering while i was on my manager car to the train station then he dropped me off @ cck o_O" haa~ wasted =p oh wells..

today!~ went kimage & did rebonding + some cutting of my hair... seriously i spent like $2_ _ lor, but my sis pay first cos she using her card to deduct the amount lolx, somemore i bought some of their hair products... liked my new hairstyle! shd haf done tat b4 graduation lor =_=" haa, nw then i knw tat its so troublesome to take care of ur hair/skin... so many products & restrictions of food

work been down so far haix.. haix... somehw xt feels like gg somewhere to study o_O? argh so frustrating havent even done up my appeal letter for smu haix~

congratz fizah for getting the bachelor !!

2009-05-29T20:39:00.003+08:00

29th May 09

work so far can be fun, stressful, tired, frustrating, apologetic and etc...

Fun-> cos went badminton session after work wif colleagues at woodlands area & manager always treat dinner/ some other foods.. =_=! after tat went on his car to take a look/ visit his home at Marsiling condominium wif other colleagues or basically christine & calvin =lolx= then he dropped us at the nearst mrt station (*muscles are aching even though it was rather a short session of badminton *ENVY* hw come the guys can smash until like... tat!, aiyo~ audrey said its cos they play often, hmm i wonder if its true o_O?)

Stressful -> manager been asking mi for my decision on wat i intend to do -haix- i seriously DONT knw myself as well... he said he wanted to knw so tat he could make planning whether to include me or........ xt is so confused on her path from nw onwards~

*argh its so frustrating tat i SERIOUSLY dunno where to go~ hw i wish an answer would drop from the sky & save me from all these thinking..

Tired -> working from 8.30am to 7/8pm, is making mi doze off almost immediately after i had my dinner.. so tired until i barely had much energy to watch my anime/manga -_-" haa, one gd thing abt my job is my time is tat its rather flexible.. one bad thing it stresses me out so much until i dunno what i'm doing..

Forgetful -> xt is really forgetful & sometimes doesnt even knw wat she is doing... eg today the manager was outside & he called office to ask who called him, but i guess i was in =dreamland= or wat.. i said cj/manager went outside already [then the manager was like huh? i'm cj... o_O" wat the HECK am i doing rite?]

nobody replied my msg asking on the outing -aww, so sad- i wana go tat place & take pics..~~!! lets gOOoOOoo kk?? =p

oh ya, SORRY!! but the pics taken on graduation wun b ready until nxt week +++ or smthing, gonna haf to arrange a day to go sis's place to pick up the pics..

2009-05-18T23:17:00.005+08:00

*sighs getting rejection 2 in a day is kind of errr..._____ anyway i kind of expected it to be like this~ haix guess i would really tink abt the "future" when tat time really comes bah =_="

-tat day went out wif sis for shopping, bought quite abit of cosmetics & acne care products-

Revlon foundation & blusher~

(Ettusais medicated acne products) -> gotten a "FREE" box for the products

xt is sOooOoooo tired.. felt tat she couldnt meet up to expectation/ there's really too much for what she can handle~

xt believes tat what will happen SHALL HAPPEN EVENTUALLY.. even if she doesnt even have any "backup" plan

2009-05-14T01:52:00.011+08:00

12th May 2009:

GRADUATION DAY!!
the ceremony was kind of quiet cos nt much pple was actually clapping for others (i gt clapped kk!) lolx.. & the list for BS is really LONG lolx..

took pics after the ceremony~ *aww.. lolx.. in the end only ordered the $20 photo pic *hope i got a gd shot* cos i wasnt really looking i guess lolx.. -SUPER TEMPTED to buy the GRADUATION bear& paiseh to those i took pics if my smile looks fake lolx.. :p-

after that went movie watching wif gals & had seoul garden + lastly Kbox session until 2am then cab back home o_O~ super tired!! call manager in the morning to request that i start work at 10am instead of the usual 8.30am lolx sleepy

13th May ~
hmm.. work today was alright i guess, was using Joe's desk for the moment until she's back from her annual leave back to china~

lolx.. Calvin was trying to be matchmaker asking if i gt bf & wat's my age tolerance -haa- & went on saying he gt a v. nice friend ard 26 yrs old o_O" [haa.. but i tink he's only jk]

Calvin is knwn as the SUPERMAN aka the SPIDERMAN in the office!! & pple started calling mi qing ting le.. =_="

2009-05-12T01:11:00.002+08:00

"Every Heart Broken"

Boy 1 was famous from TV
He carved my name into a tree
First cut's the deepest
And I left him bleeding

Boy 2 had earned a law degree
He charged me with a felony
I stole his heart and pled insanity

I know
Nothing lasts eternal in life
But love hurts forever

Boy 3 worked at the cemetery
His crooked smile was kinda sweet
All things must end
Now he is 6 feet deep

Boy 4 was filthy rich indeed
He flew a private jet, but see
He crashed and burned
There's just no buying me

I know
Nothing lasts eternal in life
But love hurts forever

Every heart that's broken is a murder one
Looking down the barrel of a smoking gun
Have mercy on me, now the deed is done
Cause every heart that's broken
Is a murder one

Boy 5 composed a symphony
Strings and choir just for me,
Then he turned deaf
It was a tragedy

Boy 6 lived in a monastery
He chose a life of poverty
I chose Channel
So much for chastity

I know
Nothing lasts eternal in life
But love hurts forever

Every heart that's broken is a murder one
Looking down the barrel of a smoking gun
Have mercy on me, now the deed is done
Cause every heart that's broken
Is a murder one

Every heart that's broken is a murder one
Looking down the barrel of a smoking gun
Have mercy on me, now the deed is done
Cause every heart that's broken
Is a murder one

Boy 7 was a Don of all Sicily
He tried to kiss and tell on me so now he
Sleeps with the fishes, arrivederci baby

Last boy was a director on a silver screen
He went and wrote a slasher flick just for me
When he said cut
I took it literally

Every heart that's broken is a murder one
Looking down the barrel of a smoking gun
Have mercy on me, now the deed is done
Cause every heart that's broken
Is a murder one

Every heart that's broken is a murder one
Looking down the barrel of a smoking gun
Have mercy on me, now the deed is done
Cause every heart that's broken
Is a murder one

2009-05-12T00:19:00.007+08:00

Hope you like the song as much as i do :D

Monday!~
today MORNING, early 9am... the STUPID STUPID GUY prank CALL the OFFICE AGAIN!!! i answered it... he v.v.v.v. idiotic u knw, kept asking this & that as if he's SPYING on the company [really NOT JOKING]-> HE REFUSE to give us his contacts then wat say he want all the information first then he see if he want to job / come for a interview if nt waste of his time... i was like *PISSED off* though i cant SCOLD him then i transferred the call to aslinda [another colleague who helped mi to end the "call" peacely i guess =p]

then near to afternoon the STUPID STUPID GUY CALL again... i was on the line AGAIN =___=" but i IMMEDIATELY recognize his VOICE when he asked if the position for supervisor is still available & where are the places... then i transferred the call to "CHRISTINE" who then started reprimanding the CALLER lolx

i THINK the caller definitely have something against one of the supervisor at the worksite cos the CALLER kept asking which worksite Calvin is in charge of & HE DUN WAN TO WORK THERE... (lolx.. christine scolded HIS ATTITUDE for looking for a job... He has the CHOICE TO CHOOSE WORKPLACES & WE ALSO have the choice to CHOOSE THE WORKERS.. he's BEEN PRANK CALLING SINCE LAST WEEK - sometimes using payphone/ handphone -dunno hw many times he called le.. still scolded us saying the company WASTE $$ posting so many ads-

ANYWAY today lunch.. manager treated mi to lunch again -____-" he REFUSE to take my $$ aiyoOooo... dunno hw many times he treated me liao *feel so bad lor*

At the end of the day, the manager told mi that he recruited a NEW HR assistant & asked her to report to work tml.. i TRIED to "acted normal" and asking which applicant cos i was the one who asked the calls & attended to some of the applicants.. it was a experience HR manager hmm~ gal

Then i offered to shift to the other side of the office (offering my table for the new HR assistant that will be reporting for work Tue), the other side of the office doesnt have much vacant tables i guess somemore i need a computer to do my work~ then i told the manager that i could bring my laptop to work if there's a empty table without a computer.. [i guess ____ doesnt want to cause inconveniences to pple ard especially THEY ARE SUCH NICE PPLE.. _____ is nt being CONSIDERATE kk.. juz returning wat they have done]

____ realize tat when she's really nt alright.. despite the fact that she TRIED hard to act "okie", it still seems hard putting on a fake smile/ acting lively so that pple wont feel bad/ awkward .. & feel that they have caused inconveniences to others..

_____ hate herself being so EMOTIONAL..

anyway "BYE" to the desk that i had for like 21 days, wondering where shall i sit on wednesday when i report back to work... probably somewhere else isolated.. pics of the place tat i used to sit wif the colleagues as below~ ya i sit at the place near the wall at the front.. anyway the place is for the HR assistant so i'm juz returning it to the rightful person

____ having mixed feelings, where does she exactly belong to ..?
work/ study / music/ what?
____ wish to find out real soon bcos these mixed feelings aint really nice =[

FORGET FORGET FORGET... one gd thing is tat xt's temporary memory / history for the day can be DELETED easily

ordered some clothing from spree yesterday hope they wont go out of stock or something.. xt is INTO "CAMIS" lately haa... eager to buy from US sprees =p perhaps when next pay comes in bah [haa.. like wat fq said mostly are skirts :p but its cos the shorts are nt nice haa] haix dunno nid to wait hw many months before they can be shipped to sg -__-"

tml's GRADUATION CEREMONY!! having outing wif gals to Orchard.. watch movie then dinner @ Seoul Garden buffet... then after tat still havent decided haaa =D

2009-05-10T00:31:00.008+08:00

today's work i cant find a single word to describe it BUT all i can say is... erm

I'm GLAD that my friends didnt come and work..~

too complicated -dun wish to explain- BUT its mostly my fault as well =(

lolx.. mi & another gal Elizabeth both promised shi hui that we'll ONLY WORK THIS WEEKEND (sat & sun) BUT both of us decided to "RESIGN" / quit today(sat).. sorry Shi hui, promised you that we work for sat & sun BUT its really erm.........

oh ya & i saw my classmate from SM (Service management)..wif her mother - so coincidental

i'm SOoOOooo THANKFUL that i STILL have my Admin job which is going alright for the moment..

_______realize that there have to be a strong sense of being "NEEDED" to bring one further~ yet -if one over expect something it will only juz snap the string and making a coward appear & escaping far far away..

what exactly are we supposed to do in life - there's no point being a living puppet that's been tied by the flow of the world- doing things so as to "survive"- its pointless-
letting ur life pass by not having any idea what you are GOOD at doing?
what if you'll never ever would be able to find it...?? scary juz by imaging it
why aint there any clues/ hints ?

perhaps all of tis is knwn as trial given by him as believed by the christians..

i'm juz being random kk nt feeling down or anything i'm FINE!!! haa.. a interesting thing that i juz happen to see from wr blog LoLx..

wr i didnt knw that ur alphabet A-Z, have X after V lolx juz jk ~~ juz happen to see that

2009-05-08T20:24:00.006+08:00

Thur!~ another busy day at work:
did passport labeling for each employee, template of temperature taking for each worksite location, updating of employees for each worksite, head worker schedule template, filing for temp. work permit

ard 6.30pm or 7pm had dinner @ the office wif colleagues, manager treated us to a simple dinner meal & Calvin went to TA at the coffeeshop opposite our office for us..

i was *super unlucky* lor, cos the plastic bag for the drinks takeaway had a hole or something, i only realised it when i pour my Jasmine Green Tea(can) into the plastic bag with ice... & it was dripping, my first reaction was "wah sia...." while its still dripping on me [Christine said that i'm very funny bcos i saw that its dripping & i still let it continue drip, -haa, i SLOW REACTION- lolx Manager's office room has my Jasmine Green Tea on carpet i guess =/ lolx~

Anyway, did P-filing / Personal folder of workers till 10:30pm.. (completed only 1/15 portion?) then Christine drove using Manager's car to send mi to mrt while she & calvin went back to get the manager who's still clearing up his work at the office =haa=

Calvin is super funny lor.. -> kept saying “beng dang" 笨蛋 in a hilarious tone haa.. he's 30++ yrs le yet still *ACT CUTE* & like a child lolx

Friday~
work today is "alright" still i guess

Sat & Sun!! no office work.. BUT!!
shi hui msged mi asking if i wana work Lek Thai at Expo for only these 2 weekends... & i agreed -> cannt help it : desperate for $$ & i wana know how far i can stretch myself & knowing what's my limit..

anyway working now is like SUPER TIRING but yet nt STRESSFUL in terms of getting along with colleagues and others.. getting more used to them & knowing them more.. ^_^

-celebrating mothers day nxt sat instead!~-

=yay~ graduation on tuesday which is like So FAST!!=

2009-05-07T00:15:00.012+08:00

Wednesday

wohoo~~~ juz gotten my pay/ cheque for work of 14days in April, yeah!! total pay ard $778 but $111 or smthing went to CPF so i only gt $667~ nt really much i guess haix.. gonna TRY WORK MORE HOURS!! but finally some money in my pathetic bank acc ^^ [thankful tat they're gg to GIRO my pay to my account for may onwards...] lolx

ANYWAY today was a SUPER SUPER busy day my desk is FULL of TRASH / PaPers until i can tell u it's really SUPER MESSY lor~ but i'm guess i'm starting to learn abit more related to the operation of the company..

i've been REJECTING pple since morning till end of work... (wonder y i reject pple? -> read on =p)

the company placed 3 job advertisements in the newspapers on tuesday - HR assistant, supervisors, cleaners positions~ & since early morning the phone kept ringing & ringing!!! Yup, so was taking down their particulars & i muz really say tat alot FOREIGNERS called to enquire on the job... but the HR manager told mi tat if they are NOT BILINGUAL in ENGLISH + CHINESE (reject them dun haf to waste time talking with them) lolx.. quite abit of myanmmar and philippines pple called as well as agent company for these foreign workers eg china :O / those who couldnt speak Mandarin

Fizah: i can see why you wanted to learn chinese!! - U should continue learning as it'll eventually be USEFUL !-

& of cos.... there are also SUPER RUDE pple who call & SHOUT at you when you ask/tell them something, i was like ULTRA annoyed by this woman who called like few hrs later asking why the MANAGER havent called her for an interview -> i was like trying to explain to her that our manager will call her only if she's shortlisted for an interview but she WOULDNT listen & kept SHOUTING while she ask a question.. -> cant really remember wat exactly she SHOUTED but its SUPER ANNOYING felt like slaming the phone lor though i couldnt do it =[

(btw i CANT stand PEOPLE SHOUTING / Talking LOUDLY over the phone.. i would have the impulse to JUST SLAM/CUT the phone kk? -my sis talks super loud sometimes & she knws i really would cut off the line cos its really irritating- perhaps for her case is due to the fact tat she's a teacher??? -dunno-] o_O"

& there are PEOPLE who SHOUT/ asked ME to SPEAK ENGLISH when they are SPEAKING CHINESE & i'm being nice trying to translate what i want to say in ENGLISH to CHINESE -> totally dun understand the mentality of such pple -_-" the tone wasnt tat nice lor

& there are also PEOPLE who prank calls?? using PAYPHONE to call the company... to call and ask THIS & that but i wasnt the one who kena this, was another colleague who took the call..

o__O" another busy day @ work -haiz~ *tired* end work today @ 7pm & manager left early & gave mi a set of keys to keep (so tat i could LOCK UP the office.. lolx~)

oh ya, heard from wl tat Yati, a friend tat i knew from my previous workplace will be getting married in june!! omg time really pass so quickly... =wonder if i'm gg=

PS: God kor (i knws tat u reads the blog sometimes?)~
If u dun let mi knw when's the date, there's really nothing much i can do kk.. I seriously dun understand what you're thinking..

why are u being so secretive abt it?? kk i apologised for the fact that i forgotten the exact day for it.. as it been quite sometime since then..

-been wondering if we are still considered friends or strangers already-

An interesting phrase for ALL:
The feeling of wanting to understand and ...
The feeling of wanting to be understood ...
But just thinking this and not saying it ...
It will not get to the hearts of anyone..
That's why you cant give up

2009-05-01T22:03:00.003+08:00

Friday (labor day!)

no work today, therefore went with sis for facial... lolx i use her package to try out first (erm.. she firstly use some sort of machine to suck out all the dirt on the face i guess.. then the SUPER PAINFUL part comes -> when she use some sort of like needle (one was thicker while the other was thinner i tink) to remove/ extract all the dirt and pimples out [unconsciously was tearing out lor so imagine hw pain ;( kk lah after tat process was much better cos was a cooling/icy mask..

haa, she asked if i liked to eat "FRIED FOOD" cos she say mine have alot of clogged oil (oOpSs) then she asked mi not to eat so much of tat as well as " PEANUTS " , hmm i didnt knw peanuts oso haf a effect; is it a MYTH? -clueless-

went watsons & sis bought $110 thermometer (for the ear one) -___-" so X rite! lolx she abit KS i guess bought each Dettol instant hand sanitizer for killing germs for each of us + wet tissues.. (oh ya, i guess cos nw is quite a critical situation as well bah..)

then also went fancl to do my skin analysis for my face..mine is "normal skin" she said but it seems like i gt quite abit of freckles -_-" haa.. she say cos i never use sunguard

Cheek: Open.Sagging Pores, Oilness
T-zone: Oilness, Open Pores, Blackhead
Eyes: Dryness, Dark Circles

haa.. after analysis she gaf mi quite afew of trials samples +10% off.. perhaps can go buy some stuff after i get my pay~ tonite! gonna try my sis's -resteye gel .eye serum -> need it alot i guess since i usually rub my eyes area =( [which is no gd!!] rawrs..

saw jun yong + say hoe at the train station lolx.. juz say "hi" & they board the train -haa- my face muz b horrible cos after the facial treatment its v. red :(

EVERY1 take lotz of care lately hor.. drink lotz of water + more sleep + take gd care of face for GRADUATION lolx..

-anticipating meetup wif u guys on sunday @ tampiness ^^-

2009-04-29T20:51:00.004+08:00

wednesday~

work was er... still alrite? *except the part when the manager kept asking me "where i've done till".. which is like only 60% completed though i ran off from my workplace ard 6pm as i was meeting fq to collect our graduation attire.. i reserved online size S but in the end i took XS cos the shoulder width for S is really too big for mi though the length is alrite.. [XS is erm abit SHORT? lolx anyway dun tink it matters much :p ] haa, pple better go collect ur attire soon though it seems like there's still plenty of stocks..

then after tat, went & have dinner wif fq @ makan place.. + a long talk wif her (abt her relationships :) ~ super interesting lor though pai seh dun haf much to share wif her lolx~ [we both agreed tat we OUGHT to meet up MORE OFTEN & get to knw each other more..!]

Friday!
xt is having a super super terrible sore throat -_______-" *rawrs it hurts when i try to talk* haix.... gonna try drink coke + salt later, [hope i can make it for sunday's meeting ;( ]

i WONDER when am i getting my pay? when when when when!!~~ gonna find out i guess on sat, i worked for 2 weeks le (14days)! lolx

2009-04-27T21:44:00.002+08:00

Monday~

in the morning, manager & kelvin went out for breakfast.. they were asking colleagues in the office if they want any coffee /drinks from the canteen.. kelvin wanted to ask me, but he doesnt remember my name & was calling mi "那位小姐" until the manager was telling him my name.. but instead he & the manager started calling mi "xiao ting ting" after tat -___-" [abit hair standing lor]

work ard 4pm was HORRIBLE... things juz went terribly terribly wrong -> argh my fault again for "ASSUMING" things as i never thought of another possibility.. haix, wonder hw am i gg to survive out in the "working world one day"

-gonna forget all the bad things tat happen today & learn from it + try nt to make any more such mistakes-

2009-04-27T00:23:00.006+08:00

Saturday~

was super late for work AGAIN.. went out of my place @ 8.45am when work starts 9am [ I'M PRO RITE?? lolx.. wondering wat's exactly happening to mi, oversleeping every nw & then *rawrs~ guess i gonna haf to rest earlier + set more alarms !!]

afternoon..
met up wif fizah & i had burger king for lunch.. my 1st try @ the "beef" burger- BK Doubles Topsy Turvy, didnt knw its a beef burger until i order & saw the pamphlet on the tray lolx =i'm an idiot rite= but on the whole it taste ermmm.. still kk bah/ quite nice [i guess i started avoiding eating "beef" since i was super young when mom bought mi a beef burger or smthing from mac for breakfast -it was like super "YUCKS"as it had such a "raw" taste in it! wun ever forget this i guess]

anyway was out wif fizah to get the "things" that we needed & finding a suitable one for each one was soOooo hard: we had our super tight budget (i havent gotten my pay + fizah's havent start working yet) & we were wondering if they would like it [hope u guys would like it cos its specially chosen by us ^^]

OH YA, if my MSN sends u PEOPLE ANY WEIRD WEIRD MESSAGES muz let mi knw kk??? -dunno why suddenly v. scare that my laptop would kena virus or smthing-

received 2 weird message on msn from yonglin???!!! *virus???*

2009-04-24T23:30:00.005+08:00

hmm~ tis quiz in facebook is kind of true! lolx

Friday
today was LATE for work cos i overslept.. *oOpSs* woke up @ 8am when i'm suppose to start work @ 8.30am... reached workplace only ard 8.45am+, lolx manager caught mi & asked how come i'm late today + "asked if i went party last night" [lolx.. also asked if i had my breakfast, which obviously i didnt.. thus in the end the 3 of us went to 3rd level "canteen" & eat breakfast till 9am++ -wif cj, kelvin]

colleagues are all super super nice pple & friendly .. some even treated me to lunch/drinks/ snacks/ fish head curry though its too spicy for mi o_o! kind of felt bad lor..perhaps buy smthing to treat them nxt time [xt is craving for durian puff lolx]

today's work was alright.. so far only sorting things, keying things or filing things *juz abit sianx abt recording the ENTIRE 3 years leave tat the employees took* -> imagine 1 month - ard 30days, few hundreds employees plus somemore haf to settle from 2007 to 2009..

lolx yr 2009 i'm partially done wif it but have yet to cross reference with the payroll summary -__-" 2008: only completed cross referencing to the month of June.. soOOoOOooOOoo much more to go; no wonder manager told mi tat there's alot to do + there's an cabinet FULL of certificates for filing... !! lolx~

near the end of the day, the manager even told mi he still got some insurance for employees documents that needs to be sorted.. [rawrs really quite abit of stuffs here & there, wish tat time would *pass much more quickly*]

oh ya,the numbers of RING FILES are already piling up at my desk area.. -____-" & i have also FORGOTTEN how many sets of HANDMADE DIVIDERS that i've made out of waste paper... eco friendly company?!!!? *lolx juz joking only* [have been working while listening to my mp3 these days cos company kind of quiet when every1 is focusing on their job EXCEPT for the annoying phone calls that kept RINGING throughout the day.. though i dont answer the calls, somehw i wish i could "help" but it seems kind of confusing abt "transfering calls to the person the caller is looking for / making announcement in the office for the person"...

2009-04-23T00:42:00.002+08:00

1 week of work~

*sighs past 2 days work wasnt all that well... i made quite alot of mistakes! though manager was quite nice, didnt even scold or anything but somehow it just doesnt make me feel good;

he asked me to update the employees accommodation addresses into the MOM website.... ya, & i did so~ BUT he never ask mi to print out the summary, in the end.... i have to search one by one & transfer the data into a word document (as a summary) for verification purpose -> is it bcos his instructions are UNCLEAR? or am i juz simply an idiot?...

another thing happened today... was asked to file some certificates from employees who attended some training courses, & i did so according to their surname alphabetically BUT the manager wanted them according to the courses of the certificates -______-" [wonder y he didnt said so earlier + wondering why i DIDNT ask..]

it juz like tat present which mw+yl gaf.. i didnt even ask y it's "open".. i guess i just accept things as it is

*lesson learnt so far* : never ASSUME, always CONFIRM

xt _tired out_

2009-04-22T21:40:00.002+08:00

I'LL NEVER GET OVER YOU (GETTING OVER ME)

I hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time with all your good time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now, and I'm alone and free
I know that I oughta get on with my life
But a life lived without you could never be right

CHORUS:
And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you
Getting over me

I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
Loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay
I know that I oughta find someone new
But all I find is myself always thinking of you

repeat chorus

No matter what I do
It's like a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this
I need your touch
You're the only one I've ever loved

And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you
Getting over me
I'll never get over you
Getting over...
Never get over you getting over...
I'll never get over you
Getting over me

2009-04-20T00:38:00.006+08:00

PRISON VS WORK

Sat~
didnt knw tat work actually starts @ 9am instead of 8.30am (lolx the contract tat i signed like nt "accurate" @ all lolx~ anyway i ran off from work ard 12.30pm though manager actually wanted mi to do something.. a list i guess -> *oOps i ran off le :p; then hopped onto someone's car who's heading to ntu area's he even dropped off some of the office colleagues.. -kk i admit seriously *dunno who is he* ! haa.. a nice uncle?? lolx anyway he drop mi off below my flat (save my fares lolx)

afternoon, kena dragged by sis to go with them to suntec city for the travel fair.. *haiz too bad i no $$$, if nt can go wif them lolx~ though another sis say she can sponsor mi go hokkaiddo but i guess i wan learn violin more than travelling bah.. i havent really been out of country much i guess~ -abit troublesome smtimes- sighs so 7 days in june i haf to "settle my own dinner", sianx~ i wonder if i'm gg to takeaway food/ instant noodles which is the most convenient or hassle free way -____-" sianx!!

Oh ya~ sis won something from the draw when she bought the package to Hokkaido.. any1 interested in getting? contact mi for more details i guess

selling Aaron Kwok De Show Reel Live In Concert 09
郭富城 ''舞林正传'' 世界巡回演唱会09 (2 tickets)
Date: 30th May 2009, 8pm
Venue: SIngapore Indoor Stadium

sorry but i guess none of my family members are fans of his ... -____-"

"robert" singing @ the travel fair~

2009-04-16T20:53:00.005+08:00

IF u haf nth better to do, u can GO AHEAD & read my BORING, WORDY & DRY blog abt my work~

14th april '09

applied for the an admin job through (http://singapore.gumtree.sg/) & evening ard 9pm the person called asking if i could go for an interview the nxt day afternoon~ SUPER EFFICIENT [but the interview was kind of scary, kept asking alot of qns and even ask a scenario to see wat's my reply-> eg if you are to file employees documents from 5 different sites how would u do it... : i was tinking of by location then by alphabetical order of their surname -__-" but then it seems like tat's nt exactly the ans tat they were expecting lolx but tat's wat i learnt in my 2mth IAP sales department mah; then they explained that sales department usually go by that.. but the department tat i'm gg to be is on HR 0_O? wonder wat the model ans tat they r looking out for cos from wat i see their documents NOW its all inside ring files & alphabetically according to their surname *dots*

my normal working: M-F 8.30am-5.30pm (its always end much much later than tis lor),
Sat: 8.30pm-12.30pm -> $7/hr

1st day of work - 15th april '09

1st assignment given: recording no. of dates of employees (MC/annual leave/hospitalization/compassion leave) one WHOLE CHUNK of documents man.... started work @ 12pm cos the person called mi to come to work in the MORNING @ 9.50am - i was still asleep (yaya, i usually sleep until 1 or 2pm cos stayed up late @ nite/till morning usually)

staring @ computer for the ENTIRE 7hrs until i got off from work @ 7pm~ [eyes was super tired lor keying in all the numbers, names, formulas.... & AT THE END of the day its still nt finished lolx] tis task is really testing ALL i've learnt from excel from NP which obviously i couldn't recall all in such a short notice... thankfully i bought the excel book still reading up on it & figuring out

2nd day of work - 16th april '09
day started off by sorting documents in 3 GIANT RING FILES... (from A - Z), documents are all the employees work permit and passport etc documents -> haf to check through 1 BY 1 whether their work permit haf expired if its expired i would haf to TRANSFER them OUT to another separate GIANT RING FILE according to alphabetical order... +_+ i even made my own customized divider from A-Z out from waste A4 paper (wasted quite abit of time i guess~) btw by referring to the pic below, my DESK is nt v. big kk to PUT a computer, keyboard, phone, calendar & 4 GIANT RING FILES.. in the end i place down all below my desk -HaaaHaaaa- juz imagine HOW THICK 1 RING FILE is by looking at the last pic.. my desk was FLOODED wif documents after afew hours lor -super messy-

after i was done sorting.. the manager/ CJ-tat's wat we call him asked mi to help him photocopy the work permit list & match with the passport document tat he gaf mi; i could even REMEMBER V. CLEARLY tat there are 70 work permit in total... so ya, i HAVE to search 1 by 1 according to their alphabet from the 3 GIANT RING FILES -___-" i tink i spent >3hrs beside the photocopying machine doing the photocopying, had my lunch only @ ard 1.30pm ++ & i'm nt even finished lor~

went lunch wif Kelvin (a guy sitting behind my desk) & another lady (i forget wat's her name, call her "C" for nw, i shall go find out someday lolx)... anyway Kelvin is super funny, he came late for work today & was sneaking into the office quietly & was being caught by the manager CJ; who scolded him that he's late & didn't even say "MORNING" to others -haaa-, then ard 10mins later "C" was also late but she came in like being late doesnt mean anything & greeting us loudly then Kelvin was saying hw come she's also late but she wasn't being reprimanded... [lolx]

Kelvin describe tis -> Girlfriends are like handphones (to show off to others) while wifes are like a television (for display)

lolx~ from the tone tat "C" said, i tink Kelvin is much much older than us haa & it seems like he LOVE accounting kept talking abt it during lunch lolx & he mentioned that if i looking for a "permanent job" shd go for HR related jobs cos it EARNS the MOST AMOUNT of money $$$$$ as compared to other specialization; [lolx, tis is the 3rd time some1 said tis to mi... 1st & 2nd time was Mr. Pang-BMGT tutor+lecturer who always TALK abt his COFFEE SHOP stuffs wif us]

AFTER lunch, continued doing photocopying & after that was "sorting" with CJ in his office... -____-" there's a total of 90 documents to be sorted out and double check the details super lotz of things when we're done its ard 6.10pm already & CJ left hurriedly.. haa, i guess i "cheated" abit cos ard 6.15pm i left office but i wrote in my LOGCARD till 6.30pm :P but the 1st day i work till 7.20pm but i put 7pm only lor so i guess tat makes it EVEN haa~

didnt take lotz of pics cos was SUPER busy today... will try to take sneak pics of colleagues & my office workplace when i'm FREE which i doubt so -___-"

2009-04-15T09:57:00.002+08:00

omg omg..!!! after near to 1mth ++++ i'm finally found a job- admin job tat helps with the HR department~

kk i elaborate when i get back from work today..... cos, the person jux called mi while i was "sleeping" like a pig in this rainy weather = embarrassed = (i was so sure tat i "failed" again yesterday when they didnt call mi when they said they will probably call yesterday.. i was sad~ it seems like she gaf in to mi, $7/hr ^^ hehe~ but tis job sounds super stressful as she kept mentioning yesterday & the interview was tough wif so many questions & scenarios)

xt is off to read the "Mcsoft Office Excel" textbook (bought for 1 semester jux for tat CD in the book, seems like its paying off right now)

sOOoOOooOOoo happy right now~ it will be good if i could receive letters from uni too sighs

2009-04-13T09:59:00.004+08:00

i'm an idiot !!! omg lah~ a person jux called mi juz nw regarding the resume i sent.. a vacancy for a job in pandan /clementi (assist in another person on shipping documentation etc, training provided) pay ard $1,600-$1,800 [everything seems so nice rite???!!]

haix.. but it seems like they looking for pple for 6mth contract -___-" perhaps i shd GIVE UP hope rite nw rather than waste my time; *shit* perhaps i nid time to focus all my energy on a job & forget all abt uni which is really impossible wif that horrible grade of mine (no merit nthing jux a simple ugly cert *sighs)

can some1 enlighten mi?? whether shd i continue to "waste" my time on something so impossible and jux move on to a job? tis is so frustrating.. i gg to give myself a deadline i guess, no point harboring on something i knw deep down tat it's nt possible rite?? + i'm soOooo nt gg to repeat wat happened eg. my OIAP, wasted so much time over smthing

graduation ceremony in ard 1mth time - 12th May 09! *wondering if mom wan go..lolx